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It’s been two years. I remember the two first months felt like forever. Two years ago I thought I would be ok in a two years time. I wasn’t back then, it felt like a never ending pain. But the reasonable me kept on saying "Hold on, just hold on. I will be okay, it will end one day and it will go faster than you expect. It just doesn’t feel like that right now. But I know it will.”
I honestly thought two years would be more than enough to… I don’t even know to what. To move on, to stop hurting, to stop crying, to stop loving. Perhaps even to forget?
But I haven’t. I haven’t stopped crying or hurting. I haven’t really moved on. And I have definitely not forgotten.
So now I don’t know what I should tell myself anymore.
I guess people who say that you’ll never forget your first true love are actually telling the truth.
Namsi
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you never get the same after getting your heart broken by your first love. you will always be a little bit broken, and your heart will always skip a beat when you see him and even if you sometimes think that you finally reached a point when you can let go, something will happen which will make it impossible to move on. I guess you just have to live according to these conditions and try your best to make the best out of it and accept that it will hurt and you will never truly move on but that even though you don't want to let go it is already gone and you can't do a thing to change it, you realy can't do anything to change it. you just have to remember that this is life, and believe that what will come will be better than what came before, try to focus on that, even though it feels like your heart falls to pieces everty single day. i'm still struggeling with it but i have to continue trying.
my ex of four years got married six months after i broke up with him. although i should hate him for lying and cheating and getting caught...then getting married to someone he hardly knew...but here i am...13 months later...still missing him, thinking about him, perhaps...even loving him still. and i just can't get over it. i too, tell myself over and over to just hold on, and things will get better. that i will meet someone he will be so great, that the thought of the ex wouldn't even bother me. I'm still waiting...but keep you head up!
I wish I could remember what love is like. I love my family and what not, but love for that significant other. I feel like that feeling has come and gone, death has slammed down on my head like a tidal wave and took all that away.
Merry Christmas everyone - off All nights, I would wish that I knew where you are tonight.
Sei exatamente sobre o que você está passando...
Primeiro amor nos deixa marcas profundas demais para esquecer. Adoro o seu blog e as imagens são lindas!
Um feliz natal para você! :)
Translating: I know exactly what you're going through...
First love leaves scars too deep to forget.
I love your blog and the pictures are beautiful!
A happy Christmas to you! :)
you never stop loving ANYBODY if you truly fall in love with them. it's been 6 years, but i still have a soft spot for my 'first love'. i don't want him like a lover anymore, i just love him from afar -- like a really good, old friend. i blush when our eyes meet. we still talk about our past. he wonders about our future. but my mind knows the answer.
i am in love with someone new now. i love him & want to spend my life with this one. we've been together for nearly 4 years. trust me, you'll find someone new, & after that, the rest is history. :)
merry christmas :)
kisses
xX
Namsi I totally understand you, when I first read your story I felt as if you were writing mine, its been two years now since I knew my ex is the one. But he won't let me show him, I screwed everything, it was our first relationship and we didn't knew how to handle it. A year ago he left him arguing I wasn't the woman he was looking for. Nonetheless after all this months I'm still hopeful that sometime soon he'll come back, and if he doesn't, if my ex as yours doesn't come back, something good will happen to us, there are better days ahead than any we leave behind, even if this sounds false it is absolutely true, there's a whole new world out there, we just have to go and get it.
Merry christmas and I'm sure your wounds will heal, its just a matter of time and patience.
they say time heals eveything, but it does not.. i fell you when you wrote this. I miss my ex, every day.. and at the night whe you feel so loney, thats when we miss them mostly. But if they really cared about us, they would find a way too contact us... but i guess, all we have to doo is too... moove on and pretending eveything is okey, when it's not....
Namsi, you never forget it, but you'll find the BIG love, the unless.
Somebody breaks my heart into a million of pieces. And one day, I met a guy who makes me feel alive, more than ever.
Patience and hope.
LOVE xxx
I'm so happy I found this website, it really hits home. I'm actually going through stuff with my ex - boyfriend, he broke up with me two days ago. We had been going out for 4 and half years. We hung out on Monday and while we were hanging out I told him he was dirty. I was acting jealous because he had been married while we broke up. I was so hurt that he had slept with another woman. Knowing that he had been with his ex - wife hurt and upset me so much. He claims that creeped him out. Whenever I would tell him I thought of him he would literally push me away. He picked a fight with me and said he doesn't want to deal with me anymore and he told me to leave him alone.
You never forget you're first love however if their treating you poorly you need to get out! I know he's a good guy but he obviously doesn't want to deal with the feelings he's harboring. I don't deserve to be treated the way I am so it's better to find another guy. Because you know what? The next guy will cherish what he has when he has it.
Just Be positive and remember you deserve the best!
God, that's what i'm thinking everyday. Thank you so much to put words on our feelings.. I think we have to admit and live with it, we never really forget our first love. It won't be the last, of course, but it will always be the deepest.
I hope one day we will all heal, cause even if we meet other boys, they all remind us of the only one.
yeah..
even i cant forget my first love.
I have been with her for three years during my college days. we were very good friends. but somehow she fell with someother guy. I could not even tell her my feelings
I miss her so much. even I cant another like i loved her
yeah..
even i cant forget my first love.
I have been with her for three years during my college days. we were very good friends. but somehow she fell with someother guy. I could not even tell her my feelings
I miss her so much. even I cant love any other like i loved her
reading this made me cry.
me and my boyfriend broke up yesterday on christmas
he was my first and only true love, i don't see myself not loving him even though we won't be together ever again.
i guess in time everything will heal and each day will become easier, but i'll never forget him.
thank you for this post, knows that I'm not alone
i completelly understand you. after two years, i've broken with my first love, my soul mate, the one i've loved like nobody else. The worst, is that he still love me and I love him, but we live in different cities, and...the biggest one... our parents are hanging out for two and a half years... We had the most difficult thing to find, love...but we can't be together because of that.. Why isn't love enough?
Two years? Honey Im so sorry. This is my worst nightmare. You are so strong and I hope your love comes back to you. I really do.
I don't understand to how guys are too blame for everything when really girls have their mustakes, too. It's just.. My ex-girlfriend and I broke it off two years ago and found somebody else way too early after the break up. A fucking week.
all we can do is ti wait, because time helas everything ...just don't hurry up to find love, it will come when you at least expect it..
and you never forget your first love, he will always be in your heart, no matter what.. but the new boy will make you forget him a little bit .. and make it eaiser!
Me too.
you'll be okay, I promise.
Life is beautiful, so is the human mind. Just treat yourself well, and you'll be on the mend. <3
That first one. They always get you. they stay in your heart and mind. I dont think its fair really. and it always keeps me wondering if i am the same for them. That constant reminder of the past. if they...every for a second a week think about me as well. if they hold the memories i have... if i still have a place in his heart. But i will never ask.. in fear of the truth... whatever the truth is... im not sure i want to know. Knowning Translates into... confusion.
... Not going to lie, that's some seriously fucked up shit. Just shut off your brain and get over it.
Honey, I think quite a few of us are in the very same boat. It's been a year for me and I feel the same as you.....but be strong!! We can get through this.....
God is this pain going to last for two years? I won't make it.
Be patient, it will be better soon.
I stumbled upon your blog just today. I may not know a lot about the relationship that you had with your former flame, but there's one thing that I know for sure - you have got to be kind to yourself.
Kind, as in allowing yourself to move on.
One valuable lesson that I've learnt from the previous break up is that I have to take charge and move on. Do not let the pain and past rule you.
The beginning is always the hardest part, but once you manage to get it through, u'll get through.
Good luck. :)
Sadly, it's the truth. it is almost horrific to know how much of an impact that a first love can have on an individual. He was spiteful and left and made many deprecating comments about me to our friends. But deep down inside, I know that an eye for an eye will leave the world blind. He's taught me how to love and to be loved. Because of that, I'd be remiss to discount that one special lesson he's given me. I'll never know how much pain he is in, and for that matter, how much he misses or loves me, or lack thereof.
It has been 13 YEARS! Your first true love always leave a gaping hole in you heart that no one can ever fill. You learn to live your life, you learn to move on and become a master of putting all the feelings and emotions in boxes. Sometimes the seal breaks and it all comes rushing back. You never forget, you never stop loving, you just never really get over it. To make things worse, is if your relationship did not end due to the lack of love or passion....we never stopped loving each other.... This is really screwed up...
You walk many paths in your life, have one relationship after another, end up settling, getting married, knowing that a piece of your heart will always belong to someone else! Once in a blue moon, our spirits collide...we share some short text messages till it hurts so badly, you stop.
You cry, your heart breaks all over again, you wipe your tears, you put on a smile and get back to the life that you have chosen instead...
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