Friday, December 23, 2011

you’ll never forget your first true love

Dogantepe
ph: RengimMutevellioglu

It’s been two years. I remember the two first months felt like forever. Two years ago I thought I would be ok in a two years time. I wasn’t back then, it felt like a never ending pain. But the reasonable me kept on saying "Hold on, just hold on. I will be okay, it will end one day and it will go faster than you expect. It just doesn’t feel like that right now. But I know it will.”

I honestly thought two years would be more than enough to… I don’t even know to what. To move on, to stop hurting, to stop crying, to stop loving. Perhaps even to forget?

But I haven’t. I haven’t stopped crying or hurting. I haven’t really moved on. And I have definitely not forgotten.

So now I don’t know what I should tell myself anymore.

I guess people who say that you’ll never forget your first true love are actually telling the truth.

Namsi

117 comments:

  1. you never get the same after getting your heart broken by your first love. you will always be a little bit broken, and your heart will always skip a beat when you see him and even if you sometimes think that you finally reached a point when you can let go, something will happen which will make it impossible to move on. I guess you just have to live according to these conditions and try your best to make the best out of it and accept that it will hurt and you will never truly move on but that even though you don't want to let go it is already gone and you can't do a thing to change it, you realy can't do anything to change it. you just have to remember that this is life, and believe that what will come will be better than what came before, try to focus on that, even though it feels like your heart falls to pieces everty single day. i'm still struggeling with it but i have to continue trying.

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  2. my ex of four years got married six months after i broke up with him. although i should hate him for lying and cheating and getting caught...then getting married to someone he hardly knew...but here i am...13 months later...still missing him, thinking about him, perhaps...even loving him still. and i just can't get over it. i too, tell myself over and over to just hold on, and things will get better. that i will meet someone he will be so great, that the thought of the ex wouldn't even bother me. I'm still waiting...but keep you head up!

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    1. That's unfortantly not always true I'm sorry to say . When I was 19 my first love broke my heart did the same got a girl pregnat asked her to merry him then now 8 yrs later realizeed I I was the one . I loved him with every fiber of my being but I had to move on I got merried and I still love my ex see I to thought like u ill meet somone and my ex will be a memory although that's true he's a memory that haunts me daily and not even my husband takes his place no person can take away the pain a first love causes and no one can make u stop loving ur first

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    2. I can understand just how you feel, i,m 63 years old and i,m still in love with
      the girl i dated when i was 19 . yeah 45 years ago and i still so madly in love with her. life does give us some blows we don,t understand, doesn,t make it easier though when you truely are in love with that person

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    3. Wow 45 yrs! And here I thought 13 yrs is a long time... especially for me, loving someone who only played with my heart. Yet, I never hated him, tried to forget, but can never stop feeling the love I had for him... Here's to another 32 years...

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    4. I know how this feels I am still in love with a girl I dated 8 years ago. I am not unhappy but part of me still believes with her I would have been much happier. Some days I smile thinking of her and I have learned how to live without her. I wish her the best : ) .
      Hope all you fell well too...

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    5. I lost my heart one summer day when I was 26. I spent ten years in the happiest relationship I thought would never end. She left me and moved out a week later after telling me the shocking news out of the blue. Later I found out she was hooking up with her swimming instructor. they are now married, and it is 3 years later, but I still miss her. I am in a relationship with a wonderful woman, and I want to give myself 100%, but a part of my heart is gone and I can never get it back... I live with the pain every day and it has become my life. Maybe one day I would find the joy I have been missing since she left so that I might share a life of happiness with my wonderful new partner. Perhaps I would forever be the sucker that cries over spilled milk...

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  3. I wish I could remember what love is like. I love my family and what not, but love for that significant other. I feel like that feeling has come and gone, death has slammed down on my head like a tidal wave and took all that away.

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  4. Merry Christmas everyone - off All nights, I would wish that I knew where you are tonight.

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  5. Sei exatamente sobre o que você está passando...
    Primeiro amor nos deixa marcas profundas demais para esquecer. Adoro o seu blog e as imagens são lindas!
    Um feliz natal para você! :)

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  6. Translating: I know exactly what you're going through...
    First love leaves scars too deep to forget.
    I love your blog and the pictures are beautiful!
    A happy Christmas to you! :)

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  7. you never stop loving ANYBODY if you truly fall in love with them. it's been 6 years, but i still have a soft spot for my 'first love'. i don't want him like a lover anymore, i just love him from afar -- like a really good, old friend. i blush when our eyes meet. we still talk about our past. he wonders about our future. but my mind knows the answer.

    i am in love with someone new now. i love him & want to spend my life with this one. we've been together for nearly 4 years. trust me, you'll find someone new, & after that, the rest is history. :)

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  8. Namsi I totally understand you, when I first read your story I felt as if you were writing mine, its been two years now since I knew my ex is the one. But he won't let me show him, I screwed everything, it was our first relationship and we didn't knew how to handle it. A year ago he left him arguing I wasn't the woman he was looking for. Nonetheless after all this months I'm still hopeful that sometime soon he'll come back, and if he doesn't, if my ex as yours doesn't come back, something good will happen to us, there are better days ahead than any we leave behind, even if this sounds false it is absolutely true, there's a whole new world out there, we just have to go and get it.
    Merry christmas and I'm sure your wounds will heal, its just a matter of time and patience.

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  9. they say time heals eveything, but it does not.. i fell you when you wrote this. I miss my ex, every day.. and at the night whe you feel so loney, thats when we miss them mostly. But if they really cared about us, they would find a way too contact us... but i guess, all we have to doo is too... moove on and pretending eveything is okey, when it's not....

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    1. I completely feel and agree with this statement ....but all the while hoping you feel better now....10/13!! I'm only away from my ex for 2 months but my life is great, busy, busy, busy!! Out with friends, activities, working out, taking care of myself and then WHAM there is ALWAYS something there to remind me!! Always. I have NC, not on his FB or any other social media but he is always in the front of my brain and when he is not there is ALWAYS something to remind me. I don't know the answer...its hard and heartbreaking everyday. If I ever figure it out, I'll come back and tell you but for now just wanted to share how deeply I feel you pain.

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  10. Namsi, you never forget it, but you'll find the BIG love, the unless.

    Somebody breaks my heart into a million of pieces. And one day, I met a guy who makes me feel alive, more than ever.

    Patience and hope.

    LOVE xxx

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  11. I'm so happy I found this website, it really hits home. I'm actually going through stuff with my ex - boyfriend, he broke up with me two days ago. We had been going out for 4 and half years. We hung out on Monday and while we were hanging out I told him he was dirty. I was acting jealous because he had been married while we broke up. I was so hurt that he had slept with another woman. Knowing that he had been with his ex - wife hurt and upset me so much. He claims that creeped him out. Whenever I would tell him I thought of him he would literally push me away. He picked a fight with me and said he doesn't want to deal with me anymore and he told me to leave him alone.
    You never forget you're first love however if their treating you poorly you need to get out! I know he's a good guy but he obviously doesn't want to deal with the feelings he's harboring. I don't deserve to be treated the way I am so it's better to find another guy. Because you know what? The next guy will cherish what he has when he has it.
    Just Be positive and remember you deserve the best!

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  12. God, that's what i'm thinking everyday. Thank you so much to put words on our feelings.. I think we have to admit and live with it, we never really forget our first love. It won't be the last, of course, but it will always be the deepest.
    I hope one day we will all heal, cause even if we meet other boys, they all remind us of the only one.

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  13. yeah..
    even i cant forget my first love.
    I have been with her for three years during my college days. we were very good friends. but somehow she fell with someother guy. I could not even tell her my feelings
    I miss her so much. even I cant another like i loved her

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  14. yeah..
    even i cant forget my first love.
    I have been with her for three years during my college days. we were very good friends. but somehow she fell with someother guy. I could not even tell her my feelings
    I miss her so much. even I cant love any other like i loved her

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  15. reading this made me cry.
    me and my boyfriend broke up yesterday on christmas
    he was my first and only true love, i don't see myself not loving him even though we won't be together ever again.

    i guess in time everything will heal and each day will become easier, but i'll never forget him.

    thank you for this post, knows that I'm not alone

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  16. i completelly understand you. after two years, i've broken with my first love, my soul mate, the one i've loved like nobody else. The worst, is that he still love me and I love him, but we live in different cities, and...the biggest one... our parents are hanging out for two and a half years... We had the most difficult thing to find, love...but we can't be together because of that.. Why isn't love enough?

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  17. Two years? Honey Im so sorry. This is my worst nightmare. You are so strong and I hope your love comes back to you. I really do.

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  18. I don't understand to how guys are too blame for everything when really girls have their mustakes, too. It's just.. My ex-girlfriend and I broke it off two years ago and found somebody else way too early after the break up. A fucking week.

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    1. Same thing happened to me. I loved my boyfriend more than anything and I'm still not over him after 10 months. A week after we broke up he was already with another girl. Makes me feel like shit.

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    2. I hate to tell you but they were seeing someone behind your back. If someone else appears a week later, he or she was already waiting in the wings.

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    3. ^That isn't true. They probably are the types (I am this type) that cannot stand to be alone. They found someone quickly. To our type (as stupid as it is), if we are the ones broken up with, we will find someone else to keep our company. It does NOT mean that they were seeing someone behind your back.

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  19. all we can do is ti wait, because time helas everything ...just don't hurry up to find love, it will come when you at least expect it..
    and you never forget your first love, he will always be in your heart, no matter what.. but the new boy will make you forget him a little bit .. and make it eaiser!

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  20. Me too.

    you'll be okay, I promise.

    Life is beautiful, so is the human mind. Just treat yourself well, and you'll be on the mend. <3

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  21. That first one. They always get you. they stay in your heart and mind. I dont think its fair really. and it always keeps me wondering if i am the same for them. That constant reminder of the past. if they...every for a second a week think about me as well. if they hold the memories i have... if i still have a place in his heart. But i will never ask.. in fear of the truth... whatever the truth is... im not sure i want to know. Knowning Translates into... confusion.

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  22. ... Not going to lie, that's some seriously fucked up shit. Just shut off your brain and get over it.

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    1. How is that gonna help ? Your advice doesn't help at all.

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  23. Honey, I think quite a few of us are in the very same boat. It's been a year for me and I feel the same as you.....but be strong!! We can get through this.....

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  24. God is this pain going to last for two years? I won't make it.

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  25. Be patient, it will be better soon.

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  26. I stumbled upon your blog just today. I may not know a lot about the relationship that you had with your former flame, but there's one thing that I know for sure - you have got to be kind to yourself.

    Kind, as in allowing yourself to move on.

    One valuable lesson that I've learnt from the previous break up is that I have to take charge and move on. Do not let the pain and past rule you.

    The beginning is always the hardest part, but once you manage to get it through, u'll get through.

    Good luck. :)

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  27. Sadly, it's the truth. it is almost horrific to know how much of an impact that a first love can have on an individual. He was spiteful and left and made many deprecating comments about me to our friends. But deep down inside, I know that an eye for an eye will leave the world blind. He's taught me how to love and to be loved. Because of that, I'd be remiss to discount that one special lesson he's given me. I'll never know how much pain he is in, and for that matter, how much he misses or loves me, or lack thereof.

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  28. It has been 13 YEARS! Your first true love always leave a gaping hole in you heart that no one can ever fill. You learn to live your life, you learn to move on and become a master of putting all the feelings and emotions in boxes. Sometimes the seal breaks and it all comes rushing back. You never forget, you never stop loving, you just never really get over it. To make things worse, is if your relationship did not end due to the lack of love or passion....we never stopped loving each other.... This is really screwed up...

    You walk many paths in your life, have one relationship after another, end up settling, getting married, knowing that a piece of your heart will always belong to someone else! Once in a blue moon, our spirits collide...we share some short text messages till it hurts so badly, you stop.

    You cry, your heart breaks all over again, you wipe your tears, you put on a smile and get back to the life that you have chosen instead...

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    1. Wow! Your story is almost exactly as mine... except that I never knew if he actually loved me or not... he was that kind of person... ambiguous... but no matter how hard I tried, I cant forget, even after 13 yrs... we also tried to remain friends bc he was my best friend before love... but the pain was always too much... each of his words would make my heart skip a beat, and my heart would break again and again... If I had known that loving means never to stop hurting, I would never have loved... Life has moved on far away from each other and I have not seen him for 13 yrs except for occasional texts, but he remains close to my heart whether I want it or not...

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  29. Guys feel this way too. i wasnt the best person when i was dating my ex and i used to use the fact that she was so attached to my advantage. She was the most faithful person ive ever been with. we moved from chicago down south together and i adored her but did it secretly. most guys do not want to show their weakness. I know i lost my chance and every time i think about her it brings a sharp pain. we were engaged and i would have never thought it would have happened this way. I just washed her clothes that she left behind and was told to toss them. I know its weird but i cant bring myself to do it. She has left so much stuff behind as reminders. I know that one day im just going to snap out and toss everything. Ladies, men have emotions too. He may be feeling pain too but he may also know that it will never work out.

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  30. Yes I agree with Anonymous, for me it has been 13 years also! That is a very long time to still love someone. But in my heart I know I do and always will. I was young when I met him-he took a piece of my heart and never gave it back I guess. IDK but it hurts and wish it would go away!

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    1. Me too, I feel the same way... wishing that it would all go away...

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  31. I met that special guy a year ago and I always felt we had an unspoken connection. Finally we began to talk just this last January and then we stopped. We picked things back up in April and we were really into one another. I had never met anyone like him before and it was amazing. Then about a month ago he broke my heart to a million pieces with a text saying we couldn't talk anymore. And that's when I knew how much he meant to me. Today I still think of him and when I see him I just go in the other direction as it is difficult to let him see how much he has effected me emotionally. So I just tell myself that with time it will get easier and u must believe that too. Sure it's hard and easier said than done, but if it's meant to be, then it will be. If not then someone else will come along and capture your heart.

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  32. hi

    reading all this makes me sad because recently three weeks ago my bf of 9 years turned around and said he could not see a future with me anymore, that he loved me but he felt like he was holding me back (was this a cop out) i was 16 when we met i am now 25 and feel like my whole world has crumbled. he tried to cut me out of his life completely saying he wants the old me back. i don't know how i will cope to be honest he was my best friend, he is the first person i would text in the mornings and last thing at night. i don't think i could love anybody again.

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  33. hey m crying now..just want to tell many thing but i cant .a girl was der.she is my real love .she is married now.and i m her real love until now.she is married since 3 month but she cant forgot me and me too.i dont know what is next.but yes i know i never ever forgot her.what a life....every drop of my love i gave to her .i m a foolish who let her love go .yes i m a guy who let her love go.may be today is that day she is going forever.no one can forgot her real love until death comes.i miss u so much my little baby..........................

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  34. 42 years now, and it was love at first sight, I still cry, to continue on without him was not the life I chose, it was chosen for me, I knew he would be the one who would break my heart, I tried with all my might to love him from a distance, he won, he stole my heart, for a small measure of time the world as I knew it had ended, and the best was at it's dawn, one swift moment stole it all away, yes you go on, yes into another day, you are never the same, there is always the memories, always the pain, when death stakes it's claim...

    Loving him Is never ending...

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  35. we knew each other for 8 yrs... massively in love but in certain parts of the world one needs permission from parents.. my parents were willing.. girl parent unwilling becoz of certain religious sub differences....we parted.. she married another i married another have kids..its 6 yrs now both are happy in theier own world but... true love never dies.. believe me..we mail each other about ups and downs..we pray for each others happiness.................................and it ll go on and on...... if its true love just u ll just not forget

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    1. im in your place now except for the fact i am a gal ..we dated for 5 years we dated for 3 years.. i was with him through all his ups and downs...he was in the worst part of his life where he didnt have a job..and was considered as a utter failure...the first time he asked me out i thought nothing great was going to happen but right now he needs a friend...and soon as all love stories have it it never stays in friendship..soon i started helping him loving him..he too did the same for me.love blssomed before we knew we loved cared and we sincere to each other..he was there for my evrery problem he protected me.we shared all our happiness an sadness together...withing the course of two years he proposed to me one day..but we
      are both from two different religion..two different countries..as they say in ceratin parts of the world they need permission from parents..which is the most stupidest thing in this centuary i know..hes 7 years older to me ..wanted to start a family life..before i could think anything...his father became sick and was admitted in ICU.religion matters lots in this part of the world...we could even get killed for that.his fathers greatest wish is to marry he girl he chosed...we both now are going to the toughest phase...i tol him to move on get married...we both are in love...more than anyone...we share no egos and we compromise lots for each other...he feels like hes cheating me and cant imagine anyone in my place..i tol him its fine..but i am hurting inside..family.religon socety..created this huge rules...evryday tp go to sleep and not knw that maybe today or tommorow he mite get married is the stupidest feeling to have..the funniest thing was that i was the most practical feamle ever...but once i fell in love..things changed...idont know about tommorow...but life is hard.

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  36. It feels so bad! It's been 1.5 years. Nothing ever happened between us! I am in love with him but still know that we can't be together. I don't even think he feels anything for me..And I never thought that I could love someone so randomly! I thought it was just a crush, that as time passes this feeling will fade as well! But, surprisingly enough, it hasn't..And now I know that it is stronger. And my heart still beats faster when I see or talk to him (very rarely now). I know now, after almost 2 years, that it is love. I will never stop thinking or care about him...he'll always have a place in my heart! No matter what, he will manage to have a special place there. Sometimes crying feels better but it gets over with time! And the only thing left for him is pure love. Love that can't be erased! Life goes on, everyone finds that special someone who can make him happy again. But you can never feel the same way again! You can definitely love again but not as intensely as that very fist moment 2 years ago! And unfortunately, we have to live with that! Because that's life and that's why we need to try and go on.

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  37. Been 10 years, I think. I miss him every day. I am broken. Never healed. He is an author/illustrator, and I see his books everywhere, like a slap in the face. They are dedicated to his wife and children. I am raw.

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  38. First love never dies. We can try our best not to think about the past. We can think we have moved on. But one song, one movie, one memory brings the walls crashing down. It has been 6 years, but my heart still aches as if we split yesterday.

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  39. Great to stumble on this site. I just received news that my ex, the man I considered my true love is getting married. He just paid bride price to his girlfriends parents. The thing that stings and hurts me the most is that we broke up 4 FOUR solid years GO AND I HAVE NEVER FORGOTTEN HIM. I know that he will never be mine again and in fact our breakup was painful and nasty and so I know I deserve better, Leaves me wondering then why I still think about him on a daily basis for the last four years....without fail...so much so, I have been unable to move on by being in another relationship and getting married. Now that he is getting married, perhaps I will find reason to Pray for another man and then I can move on as well. I still cry over him n today I cried a river when the news came in. Life, Life Life.

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  40. i wish i was just next to you when you was typing this message because im a boy and ive felt each and every word you was tapping with your fingers.. first love is always the unforgettable one, always the love that has corrupted your life for many reasons. i could go on about this all day long but im sending you my hugs instead.

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  41. Thanks for sharing. I'm someone who has broken the hearts of others. In all cases, I have broken up with them for x, y reason. In the last three relationships I've had in which I've really cared for the person, it has been painful to break up even though I've taken the initiative. I justify it by telling myself that sometimes you have to be cruel to be kind. It still hurts and I find myself in so much pain that I can't cry. Its been a solitary grievance no one really knows about it. I find solace in knowing that my past lovers will find someone and re-encounter love again though. That makes me happy.

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  42. Obvious lm here coz there is that person l cannot forget. I hve tried no contact as they say it works but someday lm finding myself getting tempted to just text. I'm hoping he comes back it feels like l fell in love with him after we broke up. I didn't beg him to stay even if l could, l want him to realise l love him enough to let him go but somedays l just don't know if not fighting for it works. I'm just confused. I miss him and it doesn't get any better. So two yrs l believe you. The moment he said goodbye l fell in love with him. I wish l could let him know same time lm choosing to walk away with dignity which isn't making me hurt any less. Months have passed by nut no minute goes by without thinking of him. I love this man with all my heart.

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  43. It's been almost eighreen years and I never ever got over my first love. we loved each other since Jr high. it was all my fault. this man stood by me through a marriage to someone else. Every song of the 80s remind me of him. We dated off n on.I walked away n crushed him. Looking back now I regret it. I can never go back but I will always have my memories of my first love

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  44. I love my soul mate more than anything this world could ever show me. The moments we shared was magical (I cant even put into words how special this man made me feel - frightened to say it was almost god like) which i think is why its so hard for me to forget about him.

    I have tried every single internet search about 'ways to forget about him', moving on blah blah blah been advised find a new hobby, get new friends, date guys and NOTHING is working!!!!!! I have tried to busy myself but i dont know what more i can do :( Please if anyone could help me i would be so grateful.I have prayed on this. meditated on this, wrote a list of cons and tried to concentrate on all the horrible things about him and it doesn't work.

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  45. It was love at first sight, it was pure, true, innocent and oh my did I love him. We dated for 3 years and it has been six years since he left me and I still feel him in everything, every love song makes me think of him. I stopped speaking to him 3 years ago, trying to move on with my life. I am engaged, ready to be married, he is too. Maybe he is in love with his future wife, but I know that I am still in love with him. I think of him every day. What can I do? I guess true love really does last forever, but this true love I will never be able to have. I am going to live my life out with someone else, someone who loves me unconditionally. I hope that one day I will love him as much as I loved my very first love. I still feel the hurt in my heart, after reading this blog, I guess that is something that I will have to live with, one step at a time, one love song at a time.

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  46. the one who loves u, will never leave u....those who leave are one who never really loved u. they loved themselves and the things associated with it. ur heart will be broken forever just like mine....only thing u learn is to cope with it everyday and every breath of ur life. people are by nature selfish....love is shit. its just a chemical reaction in ur brain and produce Oxycontin to make ur life mess forever....i hate it when i am unable to handle myself, its like he has taken control over my mind and body and without him i am nothing.

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  47. i understand how does it feel to get seperared from the one u hve loved da most.. i wont say like other move on because i know it is not that just as easy as people think ... i hope u make it easy as soon...

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  48. yes it is true...
    TRUE LOVE HAPPENS ONCE...
    One should take utmost care in getting through a love relationship.

    want my love back

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  49. many poeople say they cant forget first love.
    The fact is most people cant forget any love whether it is first or second or third. But it is possible to forget it.
    For most people love is only about being with person of opposite sex.
    It is only for security we seek others. People give it the name of love.
    If you love someone because of certain qualities, it is possible you can find many people with similar qualities. Then why cant a person fall in love with all of them
    The fact is nobody falls in love just because of a persons qualities.
    Some people chase members of the opposite sex just to show that they are capable of attracting others, and this makes them feel good.
    What we think is love is nothing but selfishness.
    Thats why a mother loves a child. Because the child is her property, and the child's sucess is her only wish, however bad or good he /she may be, the mother refuses to see the bad things in her child
    The only true love i have found is between some old aged husband and wives. They know that they are going to seperate shortly and want to do something for each other selflesssly. In old age they dont have expectations from others. thats when true love is seen in my opinion

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  50. HEY GUYZ CHEERS UP.....I KNW HOW ITS PAIN WHN BRKUP...BT THE LIFE DOESNOT END .I WISH EVERY COMMENTER TO BE SUCESS IN LIFE SO EX RELIZE THAT LEAVING A DIMOND LIKE U IS BIGGEST MISTAKE OF THE EX LIFE......GUYZ CHEER UP N BE HAPIE FOREVER

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  51. Yes, i still keep thinking of her, even though she has gone too far that no matter what will happen to me, she won't even look at.

    Why god created this feeling, i simply hate now, i wish i had never loved, it's too painful.

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  52. I truly understand what you felt because I feel the same.. I haven’t really moved on and maybe I will never do..

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  53. She was our neighbor and we loved each other since we were children. I proposed to marry her, and her family said no. My family and her family are business partners, so I chose not to upset that business relationship. The MISTAKE of my life. 33 years later, we are both married to others and not a single day passes without regret for my lost love. We just stopped talking to each other when her parents objected to her marrying me.
    Choices. It is choices that shape our lives. I will feel bitter because I made the wrong choice and lost my love.
    I guess what I am saying to all lovers doubting their relationships is to make choices that makes them happy, and not regretful later in life. I know where my ex lives, and everything about her life but... but I am not part of it because of the bad choices I made earlier in my life.

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  54. No spell can take back 33 years. Hope you all make choices you will cherish years down your lives.

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  55. I can understand your painful situation as I am sailing in the same boat with same time and story line except that I am on the other side of the fence. I remember him daily, awake and in dreams for the past 33 years. I just wonder how could my mother be so cruel to me by not letting me get married to him, which changed my life’s destiny.
    Now I ask: Is it sinful to remember my first love fondly and not forget him even after my marriage to a stranger? Is it sinful to be not able to love my husband with that spark, who was a total stranger? I have been standing on this crossroad all my life. What was my fault? Where did I go wrong? How can I improve my situation?

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    1. To my companion on the sailing boat. No it is not sinful to remember your first love fondly and not forget him while married to someone else. We can not control what we feel and what we remember. It is not up to you to love your husband more that your first lover. But where does that leave you and I? We both have been through the 33 years of memories and dreams, and these will continue. But let us not judge what we or someone else did wrong, because that does not help. We should try to live out the rest of our lives and try to enjoy our spouses and children. You are not at a crossroad in your life; your are down the path of your current family and husband. That other path is gone for ever. Live your life and cherish your memories. I know I remember and dream everyday, and it does not become easier. We both have 33 years to testify to that. But we can get used to it. And maybe when we feel life is not fair, we can go back to our cherished moments and know that we have once known and lived a love to light the universe!

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  56. Thanks for being supportive, naturally you will be... I talk of being guilty and sinful because of religious beliefs as I do not wish to create bad Karma in my life and I am not able to get over this love situation, which has not been created by me. My life had been going on with the "time" not being able to heal but precisely after 33 years of strict separation, recently destiny brought us together once again when we discovered we are finally settled close by. This time I don’t want to lose his presence from my life. I yearn for him secretly but certainly I don't want extramarital relations nor do I want to hurt my husband and family. I have him as a family friend but I am nervous about future, about how it will go on and will I be able to handle it. Husband is aware of the truth without my telling as (life goes on in silent mode). I wonder how he must be feeling and so on.
    From a mature man’s point of view, I wish to know how both the men must be feeling. Can they accept such a situation sportingly?

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    1. Our stories are surprisingly similar. She is married to a family relative so I know everything there is to know about her life. Her husband, her children, her job and where she lives. But like you I have to keep my feelings to myself to avoid hurting people. I think she is aware of my feelings, but not my wife, and I don't think her husband. In the end, at least as you said she is not far. And once in a while I would see her or talk to her. I suppose you should continue in silent mode and cherish the closeness of your loved one. I do not advise you to go out in the open with your husband or your Ex. It will just create pain and confusion all around, and nothing will come out of it. Hope you don't mind me replying, you are my only confidant as I dare not speak to anyone about this for fear of consequences.

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    2. I was disturbed. This concern was disturbing me for a while and I did not know whom to turn to and confide, bogging came to my mind so I googled and this site opened up for me. As I was about to key in my content, your blog straightaway caught my attention. At first I was amazed and thought is it coincidence that he too has blogged here. I still wonder whether it is him… Only difference is my husband and he know about it so there is nothing much to hide. I am trying to make this relationship as friendly as possible but deep inside I yearn for him and it is even stronger than before, which scares me. All I am nervous about is I should not lose control over my emotions at any time. I wonder what my husband must be going through with the advent of him in our lives. I certainly want to thank you for replying, you too are my only confidant and I see you as God-sent friend, with whom I can keep in touch. I always feel God helps me when I need.

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    3. When I proposed to her 33 years ago and her parents refused the marriage, I was so stupid that I stopped all contact with her hoping I would forget, and I did, for a while. But after I got married, and she got married, it struck me like lightening that I gave up my soul mate. I talked to her 4 years into my marriage, and one year into hers, and she said, we should not hurt the people who love us, we are not meant to be. Ever since she is always on my mind, and in my dreams. I see her less and less lately. I keep looking up her name on my cell phone. I even write her messages that I dare not send and delete them. I want to call her, but what am I to say. I would tell her that I can only talk about her to her and no one else. But I am afraid to make her sad or unhappy. Maybe...Some day... we can.

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  57. Nothing else matters. Not the second, third, fourth, or fifth. Only the first love is truly permanent. The rest can only be placeholders. Even your best attempts at burying the memory of your first, with those unfortunate enough to come after, will fail. They will all be fundamentally flawed - they weren't your first love. If you are one of the fortunate ones who have a first love for whom you were their first love in return, there are higher laws in place that govern. As long as you both are alive, you will always have a chance to be together again. Don't ever be ashamed to admit to yourself what it is that you truly want. Shake this creation to its very foundation to get it. After 40 years, I'm still ready to outlast time itself if I have to. I have become a force of nature. The universe will take the imprint of my thought, and the necessary circumstances will coalesce around my thought to bring it into outward manifestation. I cannot fail. Neither can you. The best part of the story - for both of you - is the part yet to be written.

    mm

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  58. Yes so the same he did. He went for arranged marriage and moved on. I cried and cried but moved on and continued with my studies for next two years till I got married. My marriage brought me back his memories, never to leave me again till date. After 33 years when we met, I confessed my state while he confessed his state but we decide to be purely family friends. Let's hope it works and we are able to accept the reality.

    I always used to pray to God to bless me with a healthy but short life but now I stopped. Now I want to live longer.... because he is living nearby....

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    1. This is creepy. I had an almost arranged marriage, and she continued her studies to become a doctor. Then she got married. Its so amazing that total strangers end up going through life in similar circumstances. I wish you all the best, and I hope that we both have a happy future. I will always want to know that you are okay, and in some strange way, I got your back.

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  59. Just adding to your post. I'm from Florida. What is so creepy is I too ended my relationship with the person I first fell in love with and lived with for a couple of years. This happened 33 years ago and I just happened to think about the number of years today, and also ran into your post. Weird!!! Of course her mother had a big hand in making the break-up happen. I ended it out of humiliation cause we could not make any plans without mother ruining it. Well, the point is, yes, we never totally forget. In my case I think primarily I left without bringing proper closure to the relationship. Last time we talked 33 years ago she called me, 5 months after breaking up, to let me know she couldn't forget, but she made sure to tell me she was not asking for reconciliation (I knew marriage to someone was on the way thanks to mom). Short conversation and I don't think what needed to be discussed was even allowed to be discussed by the situation. We haven't talked since and I have a very good life and someone I love and who loves me dearly, but the thoughts still happen.

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  60. my ex dumped me before 2.5 years after 4 yrs of relationship, i thought that one day i will forget everything, but its not happening, sometime, i feel why should i live as still i lover her so much, weekend are impossible.Please help me how to come out else i give up my life, its so much pain, so much pain.

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  61. Hi,

    I read your post and felt as though you were writing out of me. I read many replies and felt this feeling of missing your ex-love is unanimous.

    I had a relationship that broke 3 years ago because my lover could not stand for me. He was put to test and had to select either me or his mother, and he went with his mother. I just wished he could at least inform me before doing this. But, no he just imposed this on me. I was deeply broken and did not really had any aim for several months. Later,I realized I can hardly do anything when he has made up his mind. I chose to get married. After my marriage, he still talked to me just like a simple friend. I could sense his love still. Now, he is about to get married and suddenly, I am not feeling good about this.

    I have a strange feeling, I really wish to slap him, I want to meet him once by coincidence and humiliate him and sometimes I feel sorry for him. I feel a sense of sympathy for him. I just cant analyze why these feelings are with me still, when I found someone who loves me and stands for me always. I am clear I will never cheat on my husband but still I have a mixed feeling of love and hatred for my ex. Sometimes, I feel like I never loved him, because if I can hate him so badly then how I was loving him. But, do not know how again next moment how I feel a sense of sympathy for him. I don't know what I should call but yes definitely he took away one portion of my heart that still keeps on giving me pain.

    I have chosen to live with this pain forever. After reading so many people with similar experience I just know I have to keep on struggling with this pain till my death.

    Thanks

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  62. Please tell me how to forget him. Its been over two years still miss him think about him all the time. It's killing me. I never cried so much in my life

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  63. AnonymousJuly 3, 2013 at 3:08 PM

    I can understand just how you feel, i,m 63 years old and i,m still in love with
    the girl i dated when i was 19 . yeah 45 years ago and i still so madly in love with her. life does give us some blows we don,t understand, doesn,t make it easier though when you truely are in love with that person

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  64. hey everyone plz help me
    I love someone but didn't told him and he also didn't told me then I got engaged with someone else but after that he told me he also liked me at that time...now I am so upset because I was not happy with my engagement and now I got to know all this...I cry everyday now.......but now he loves someone else.....what to do?

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  65. Mm... I'm even worst... Its been 4 years. Tbh, don't laugh but he's a celebrity so maybe i'm even worst :/.. Am I crazy for being in love with a celebrity? I thought it would be small like a celebrity crush but when I look at him... I feel my heart fluttering and i get lost in his eyes. Is this what people call love at first sight? Can this really happen with a celebrity you don't know? Everyday, my heart keeps suffering.. If i see his face just once, I end up crying in tears. I swear I can cry him a river. Is this really love? Or is my mind messing with me? Is he really the one for me? I think I might never know, unless I keep hoping that one day.... Just one day, I will be able to be by his side. I felt like, this is real; I'm being true to my feelings that people will never understand. People always tell me that it'll get better because I don't know him and I'll find someone else... but looking at myself right now... doesn't seem like the case. I get drowned in my tears just from seeing his face. What will happen if i saw him in person? I really wonder.. Why do I love him so much when I barely know him? I know, I can read people really well, but its not like he's that amazing... but I can't help it. My heart has a mind of it's own and I can't control it. My mind can't help but pity itself. I can't help but keep falling in love with him. What's the reason for this, god? Why do you want me to suffer like this, about someone I don't know? Why do I have a need to see him every morning and night? Why can't I get him off my mind? ...This is all i have to say. Love. Is sweet and sour, just like a piece of dark chocolate. As it melts in your mouth it tastes sweet but the after taste becomes very sour, until you take another bite and the cycle continues. :)

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  66. i'm 25 and making plans to marry someone who loves me and has been very good to me. but last week i had strong pangs when i realised i'm not over my first (well actually, he was my second) love even though it's been 8 years. i read the comments above and i think that could be me too in 25 years...thinking about him even though it's been 33 years... and i'm trying to decide if i should risk it all to try to be with the one i truly want to be with, or to stick with my current relationship and circumstances :( :(

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    1. I wrote that first post on June 1, 2013 at 7:48 PM, in love with my neighbor, and now 33 years later, I still feel bitter and sad for loosing her.

      My advice to you is not to rush into marriage. The one who loves you and was meant for you would wait if you ask him to. Having pangs about someone from your past ( 8 years ) could be a warning message not to loose the chance of getting back with your true love.
      You also need to know if your lover from 8 years ago is still in love with you, or has he moved on.

      Your choices are difficult. But if you are patient and approach this situation with openness, hopefully you will make the decision that will make you and your partner happy and you will not regret that decision in the future.

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  67. Yes it's true pain is still there... Once you experienced first LOVE.

    My feelings for him is still there though were broke last February, he broke up with me because his too afraid what may life I have if we will be together. He broke with me on the phone not in personal that's why it keeps me wondering why did I do something that makes him mad. I really missed him so much. I do love him and I'm sure he do love me too. But were not meant to be..

    And I've learned a lot from watching movies that:

    "The whole life becomes an act of letting go, but what hurts the most is not taking a moment to say goodbye" Life of PI

    "What if he's the ONE? He was, & he will always be an EPIC love. The only way to find another is to let Go & move On."tvd


    Let Go & Move On. I wish you could read this. Your my first love & I love you so much it hurts..

    always

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    1. I wrote that first post on June 1, 2013 at 7:48 PM, in love with my neighbor, and now 33 years later, I still feel bitter and sad for loosing her.

      If I were you, I would get in touch with him right away. There is no room for feeling shameful because he broke up with you on the phone, and here you are 5 months later getting in touch with him again. You said it "what if he's the ONE?". Get in touch with him, see him, at best, you get your lover again, at worst, you can find closure in your life and move on. good luck...

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  68. I am the exact same way right now... actually crying cause he just hurt me again.

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  69. Reading this blog and the comments made me shed lots of tears as I am also going thru the same path.I miss my ex so bad and not even a single day goes by without me thinking about him and what we had together.He hurt me so bad,2 years ago I found out he got his ex pregnant while we were still together,I couldn't bring myself to digest the news,I was crushed,broken,hurt in the worst possible way.I felt my world fall crush on me,I cried myself to sleep every single night.When I confronted him about the news he told me to move on with my life coz he had moved on with his,his words felt like a rusty knife going thru my heart.He hurt me so badly but I still love him althou he's put me thru a lot of pain,we had a good relationship and I still don't know what I did to push him to his ex's arms.He was good to me and I was good to him,we really loved each other but somewhere along the road he just changed.I dont know if I'll ever forget him,he was my true love,I still think about him daily and it cuts so deep.Its true when they say u never forget ur true love :(

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  70. It's been over five years ever since I first fell in love with a boy. Nd I love him still. I have no contacts with him; he's moved abroad for his studies. He hurt me quite a bit, I hurt him, we were never in a relationship, never even close friends but we hurt each other all the same. He was ambiguous nd when I think clearly, no he didn't love me at all; i'd be delusional to think that. But I long for him nd feel regret for how i've hurt him. I still cry when I think about it, nd I'm going through a very unhealthy phase where I'm falling for all these horribly wrong guys, all because they have a bit of him-maybe the voice, maybe the mannerisms. None of them stay, they all end up leaving the place where I used to see them. They all end up going to some other country for job transfers, scholarships,etc. After every single of these horribly wrong men leave, I mourn each of their departures. I'm really mourning my first love over and over, nd maybe trying to recreate sth like that over nd over. I feel damaged, I feel hollow nd I feel strangely abandoned. Why do I feel that even if I do ultimately meet someone perfect, I'll never be able to reciprocate to the fullest because my inside is too dried up nd bitter, to offer any real love?

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  71. OMG :( it's so true you really don't forget your first true love!! I got with my ex when we was both 15 it was a long distance relationship but somehow we made it work an we gradually got closer an closer I could trust him with my life I adored him I loved him so much an I thought he did too we did everything together I even risked my relationship with my parents for him, we was together for 3 years an he asked me to marry him we was engaged his family knew about me but secretly behind my back he had been telling his family that we wasn't together an I found out that he had another phone on the side an that he had been cheating on me I was totally heartbroken I just felt like I wanted to die I thought I couldn't take a breath without him, I never knew he could hurt me this much emotionally, he did abuse me once when I was 18 when I ran away from home with him but I never got the police involved because I couldn't bare the thought of him being arrested an away from me I knew I'd regret it so I forgave him an that's when I realised I made a mistake because after that horrific incident I found out the person I fell in love with at the age of 15 was not the same person :( it's nearly been a year now an I still miss him till this day I'm constantly thinking about him an it kills me to even think if he's moved on, I just feel like even though I went through alot with him that I can never love again :( it'll never be the same I know I'm better off without him but I just wish I could be with the old 15 year old that I first fell in love with an gradually showed me what true love meant up until a point... :(

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  72. It was five and a half years of my life. Feeling like a million pounds every day and not even realising it and now she's gone...still remember that taxi pulling out around the corner and her sad worried eyes saying goodbye. How could i have let her go? If only I could have sorted myself and my guilts and fears out then we'd still be together. It was the hardest decision in the world; should i stay or should i go - it seemed that being with her and loving her was too painful and i couldnt go on treating myself in the way i was when with her...being without her was the scariest thing in the world. Then i finally did it, said goodbye, told myself i was going to see it through this time, started looking at others, got excited about being free of all that nonsense going on in my head and just wanted to find another girl to be with. She was my first love, i'd never been with another girl.
    How hollow i feel now looking at that. It's been 10 months since we split up...Kat, if you ever read this, you know i love you still and i think of you every day, just an email...a text, anything to let me know you're ok, i can't lose my best friend and my lover in one go...sometimes i feel i may just die without you and those sunday mornings laying in bed and listening to john martyn. You will always be my true love and nothing can get in the way of that. I miss you like a constant pain. L. x

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  73. My first love and I had so much passion. We faught like we hated each other realize we didnt and then get back together for four years. After him cheating and leaving me over and over again i finally broke it off. I met someone new and couldnt be happier...until my first called me saying hes changed and promises to fix everything. I still love him but my fiance is the perfect man and I love him. I don't know why I cant stop thinking about my first ...

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  74. I had forgotten what love was all about ... on every star I used to wish for love ... and then he came along . We loved each other before we saw each other ....so we never had the time to be friends cuz we were so much inlove and till today we still do ...thing is we knew from the very start we could not end up together ... age difference and different timeline in life will keep us apart eventually . My heart aches , its a pain that have no words ... when he wanted to teach me what love is and I accepted it all we knew is that we loved each other . Soon this time will come for him to move on ... I just dont know how to let go . How do I watch him ... my best friend , my love ... move on and love someone else ?? Was I wrong to even give it a chance even tho I knew the outcome . To think about it we both cry and I know its so painful . Life brought me the one person I adore and love .. only to know he could never be mines . We love each other ...maybe he can be friends with me after but for me I am not sure and its scares me :'(

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  75. so sad..everyone has a story to tell

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  76. After 15 years i still miss my first love... She is happy in her life I am happy in mine... Amazing woman... Value the past embrace the future...

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  77. He wasn't my first, but I was his and he was such a gentleman, which I was not used to. He fell in love with me for the fact that he lost it to me, which he claimed to be untrue. He loved everything about me. I showed him new things and I know he wont forget me. Unfortunately, he's gotten attention from lots of girls now and doesn't want to be in a relationship, so therefore he doesn't want to talk to me. He says with me it's different and that he wants to be with me and to have a relationship. But since he doesn't want to be in a relationship he decided he would rather have none of me than just a piece like every other girl. I'm taking it really hard and I have begged and tried so desperately to win him back, but it hasn't worked. So now I'm trying to move on even though I don't want to. I love him and miss him so much and secretly wish he would come back.

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  78. I was 15 and he was 19. We were attracted to each other right away.We stayed together for almost 2 years. He went into the navy and was away most of the time. He was the greatest guy I ever met(very caring and loving) but the constant distance drew me away from him. I met someone else and broke up with him when he came home on leave. That was 43 years ago. I never saw him again. I recently found out that he died at 49 years old and I am devastated. I now realize at 61 that he was the only man I ever loved. He was my first and only love.I think and cry for him everyday. And NO you never forget.

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  79. It's been 5 years since my first true love and I broke up and I still feel it. I still cry, I still hurt. I'm still trying to deal with it as well. Maybe when love hits you that strongly, you never really get over the pain. A sad realisation.

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  80. I am very happily married yet my first love remains special to me even though he lives in a different country you do get over the hurt but they will always remain special to you. Everyone is different but you have to accept how you feel that you love them and will always love them.

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  81. I saw her after 33 years, i loved her then and I love her now. She is married and so am I, and I will go to my grave with my heart broken.....thinking of my life without her.

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  82. yes its truly vry difficult 2 4get ur first love
    i still remember d vry first tym i met him...i seriously had no idea dat i would fall for him....n today i madly love him....he has bcum mah lyf.....i just cant forget d golden moments wen he was vth me....at da tym i felt dat d tym hs stopped.....one day i told him about mah feelings bt den many misunderstandings happend....n i thought dat i hv lost him......today its been 3 yrs bt still i love him truly ....he is my gud frnd bt doesnt loves me as per his saying.....bt i dont know sumwhere in mah heart sumthing is der that tells me dat he also loves me .....its really vry painful 2 love sum1....evry day i cry for him....evry night cry under my pillow bt ....just luv him a lot......cant explain anymore....mah colege is going to get over within few months nd after dat no contacts vth him would b there......missing him badly ......luv him a lot .....plz sum1 help me to cum out of dis.....

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  83. Its 6am and Im about to post something on a site that should have been history years ago. I guess I am still in love huh?

    Its been 2.5 years since my last girlfriend and I broke up. I can't say I've cried every night thinking about her, but what I can say is that there hasn't been a shred of time, or a moment that I haven't thought of her. Im 21 now, so I know its more than just a silly teenage thing.

    I've had many encounters with other partners during this last 2.5 years; call it my way of coping, or whatever, but nothing can compare the physical/emotional release that was shared between her and I. Which leads me to further believe I haven't quite gotten over her. Hahaha.

    Anyway, she has her life now with another man (who is far too old for her). We did decide to meet up a few months back for a casual coffee... lasted for 6 hours, and for those 6 hours I was as happy as I could possibly be. Im not quite sure if she has moved on either though.. She used to tell me that she knew she was just settling with this guy, and how much better I was in every way.. however, nothing came from that.

    What's next for me? I can't get close to anyone else it seems.. I've tried dozens of times. It just ends up with sex, and nothing more. Even girls who have been the sweetest of sweet to me, I feel nothing each and every time:/

    Also... I know Im not a cold person for not having any feelings toward these other woman, because for this one girl I would have given my life for her... and still would.

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  84. He died December 20th 1999. Almost 14 years ago now. We were 16 years old and both in love for the first time. There was no "end" to our relationship. No closure. He died unexpectedly. Someone or somewhere I started to believe that if my love was so amazing with him, how much deeper and amazing would my love with my future husband be. I made my first love a "standard" and for years compared my feelings in future relationships with those from my first love and all paled in comparison of our love. My now husband and I even broke up because I was trying to make him be and act like someone he wasn't. I'm happily married now, realizing when my husband and I broke up that I couldn't compare him to my first love. It was at this time that I realized that each love is unique and different. My husband is what I need - we are happy together. It is easy, we laugh and have so much fun together and compliment each other. He is a great life partner and I've learned to appreciate the differences in each love I've felt separately. It is hard - I am still not over my first love and will die loving him and feel previllaged that I was his during his lifetime and know I will see him again one day. I think that the first love is the deepest because we are completely vulnerable and unjaded at that point in our lives. I miss my first love deeply and I do find myself time to time missing those "crazy, head over heals, we're the only ones in the room" kind of feelings but them i just remind myself that individual love is as unique as the two people in love and I appreciate what I have for what it is and try not to compare.

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  85. I thought that I was the only person crazy enough to struggle with this kind of thing for so long. It has been 24 years. I loved the girl so much that it hurt. She betrayed me early in the relationship but she regretted it. The problem was that I never would forgive her. I was constantly bringing it up. I wanted to be the most special person in the world to her. I think that I probably was but was too insecure to realize it. So I made the genius decision to protect my heart from pain by dating someone that I did not care about that much. I figured that I wouldn't feel pain if I was not so wrapped up in the person. After about a year of that, I was sick of it. I missed my former girlfriend to no end. Anyway, she came to my house one day and I felt like everything in the world was right again. Sadly, the same week I found out that I had gotten the other girl pregnant. I married the other girl, and 8 years later she left me. I gave up my first love for a woman who cared nothing about me. I have never forgiven myself for blowing it. I have a good second marriage now but the pain lingers. I tried to talk to my wife about it some but I don't want to hurt her feelings.

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  86. I know how you feel, i dated my first love for four years he was my first boyfriend. I loved him with all my heart. Then one day he vainished no phone call or anything. 3months later i find out he has another girlfriend and was seeing her while with me. Anyway 4years later he contacts me and says he misses me so we hang out alot and he tells me he loves me and wants to marry me one daythen poof he vanishes again after a few months then me left to find out his still with his girlfriend. Now 3 years later he is back playing with my mind.. Says his unhappy with his girlfriend and says he wishes we never broke up. After seven years i have had 1 failured relationship because no one could replace him now i am engaged with a little girl. Bit am so unhappy and wish it was him i miss him everyday just wish he would stop playing me..

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  87. My children are my first love. I'm 31 & have Never experience these type of feelings for anyone. Neither have I been anyone's first love. I've had bf's in the past but once it was over, I got over them quick. I guess I haven't met my first true love yet. I envy all of u. I feel empty. I guess it is better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all. I have to read what First Love feels like because I have no clue. Maybe I'm unlovable. It's hard to find someone that can relate to how I'm feeling.

    If you can't live without your first love, even though you're with someone else, then why don't you give him (her) a call? I think it's also unfair to the other person if you cant give them your all because you can't get over your first love :-(

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  88. PLEASE DO NOT SPAM! People share experiences here, and it's not a place for any adverts...

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  89. How can you forget someone you loved so deeply? It is OK to miss him and let a corner of your heart love him. The day you realise this, you will move on and find someone who can fill the rest of it with the kind of love you never felt before.
    Take care!
    Someone who misses her love from 10 years back and has been blessed with an angel again!

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  90. Why are we all so afraid? So afraid of the truth, Afraid they may not feel the same, afraid we'll mess it all up.

    Why do we think so much about the past, about the future about what could have been. We dwell in this pain we create...

    He was my second love, but my first True Love. I still think about him every day for the past two years since we ended. The funny thing is, I don;t thin the number matters, the time apart does not matter. Our souls are vound to that one person. That one person who thinks about us as much as we do them, they pray for us, want the best for us, love us with every cell in their body.

    But yet they are also afraid. Afraid that we may judge them for showeing love after all this time.

    If I can give any of you a bit of peace of mind it's that,

    If you can let go and your heart still holds on. It's because there's a heart out there that can't let go of you either.

    Fight for it, we all make mistakes and silly decisions. Relationships fall apart, People go through bad patches in life. Just make sure you learn the lessons that life it teaching you. Reach out to them, don't let your soul die.

    I like to think that when we die our souls will collide together the way they should have in our physical life. So why wait, believe in your heart, believe in your love. If only you could realise how powerful your heart it. It never lies

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  91. I can relate so well to all this, We love each other so much, we have been together for 5 years, but society made it difficult for us to be one, He left me and got married to a girl of his familly's choice in August last, It hurts like hell, because we never had any love or trust issues, we are from different countries, was in a long distance relationship yet made everything possible to meet each other, we were engaged but his culture and family made him helpless, he had to compromise, and here we are unable to forget each other even today, n I know deep inside, its going to last forever, a part of me is gone forever with him, We were soulmates, I feel so angry at him for choosing society over me but I love him so much deep inside, I can never love like this again, It will never happen in this lifetime, I miss him so much and I know its the same for him, I wish i could turn time backwards today...

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  92. Hi, i so know what yourl going through, i started dating this guy from the time i was in school which was grade 11, we finished school and we moved to the same place to study the same thing. we dated for 2years in school and another 2 yaers in collage, and we said its 4years now and we where really inlove he was my first love and i was his 1st love he knew everything about me that sometimes i don't know and same goes how i was about him. we have said it needs to go to the next step and tell our parents, well thats when things got bad, because im a girl and well it was not easy for my parents to accpet it because my mum was a single mother for like 10years and after that got re-married my real dad past away when i was 2 years, so when my step dad came in i took him as my dad, i had a step sister 2years bigger than me and she and her dad was very close, my step dad did not accpet this guywhen i took him home his answer was no and that it, he didn't like him he said and his not a good guy my heart was in pieaces, he said he and my mum will never accpet him and that i needed to end thing i was broken and i know that my parents knew what was best and did what there said, and the guy accpeted the fact that i respeted them and layed back but we used to still talk and connact each other for like 3months and then stopped, i year later i finished collage and move back home, my parents had a welcome party and at the party my ex was at i was like omw my parents invited him i was so happy until my step dad says he has something to tell everyone its not just a welcome party for me coming home its also the engagement of my step sister and my ex!!! i was shocked i culd not belive it i felt dead... he did not accpet him when i brought him home because my sister was in love with him but a year last she bring him home and wow its ok...i was broken i left the party and when with in my room... after everything there called me for a meeting and well i went out on my step dad and he said i was too small for that at that time thats why but if i bring a guy home now he will be ok...i was like the guy is sitting right there i really can't do it i can't i asked him how could he then asked my ex and well he said it just happened.
    i remember going to my room and my step sisyer coming in and she like you really thought he took you as his child and she laught...i told him about yourl dating and i told him i wasin love with that guy so when you brought him home dad said no cz of me for me to get him...and she walked out...
    its been 2years now i have a guy that i work with asked me out a week ago and well i accpeted...his such a great guy his wonderful but my heart still belongs to my ex not my soon to be brother in law in 3 months time cz there getting married... i don't know how to get over this i mean his my love of my life and he hurt me but i can't let go.... kills me everytime his there... and talk nice nice to me...
    i just hope i can start loving my new guy and try and move on...

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  93. Dr.Todd, I can’t thank you enough for all that you have done for me. About a year ago I my partner split up, we had both made BIG mistakes in our relationship. He ended up moving away from me to pursue a new life. I knew in my heart that he would be the only one to make me happy. I was relieved when I found your site and what you had to offer. I requested 15 day casting of the reunite us love spell and within two weeks Greg’s company had relocated him back to our hometown where I still lived. We immediately reconnected and move in with each other. Our wedding date is set for Summer 2017. Expect to see your invite in the mail! E-mail manifestspellcast@gmail.com or manifestspellcast@yahoo.com

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  94. URGENT AND EFFECTIVE WAYS TO FIX YOUR RELATIONSHIP AND DIVORCE ISSUES.
    At last my happiness and joy has been restored as my husband who left me for another girl has finally come back good and still lovely to me , i want to use this time to give thanks to Dr Blessing who has use his love spell and prayers to bring back my ex lover and also share little about my rough story between me and my husband and the other girls , i got married to the man i loved Sanchez June 23 2013 and we have been together ever since and we have leaved happily we both have a daughter , but this year 2017 when has traveled to new York on a business things changed even when he was away he never called to say hi to me and my daughter and this was unlikely of him because he loves our daughter to sky , so i began to suspect something wasn't right, but i waited for he to return to me in Canada so i know what the problems was, only for Sanchez to come back asking for divorce at first i thought he was joking , but with time i saw he was so serious on this , i tried to plead with he but nothing changed , i called my mom telling her about the situation and she said to pray about it , i was depressed and devastated on this issues and was praying and looking for help to stop the divorce and save my marriage, i seek help with many persons non could help , i continue with the search of help because i knew and have the feelings my man was not on his right senses because i know the man i married can never ask me for a divorce, so i kept on looking for solutions i spent almost all my savings seeking solution , until the Juliana a working told me about Dr blessing of blessingspiritualtemple@gmail.com, i never wanted to email him because many has taken money from me without giving any good result, but when he gave her words about Dr Blessing i decided to give it a trial , contacted him and told him about myself , he told me that he will have me to make my husband stop the divorce and reunite us again , that he gave me three days after which everything will be back to it normal place for good , i did some few things he said i should do as instructed , and let he do his work i was at work on the 15th of July about 10 AM when i received letter from my husband that my husband has cancelled the divorce case and same day at about 12 noon my husband wrote me a sweet text , and this was how me and my husband came back and today we are better as one family , so i want to use this means to tell to you all here contact Dr Blessing to for any kind of relationship or married problems and i let he solve it for you just as he has done for me , his contacts
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  95. I’m so excited my broken Marriage has been restored.“We recently made up, even though it was difficult. It’s been more than a month now, and everything feels like it’s returned to normal. He has begun to treat me better, and it’s been a healing process for both of us. The nightmare that had lasted for almost 2 years before we broke up is finally over. It’s like we fell in love all over again! We’ve both put the past behind us, and are trying to move forward – and for the first time in a long time, the future looks a lot brighter. I can’t express in words how grateful I am Dr Mack! It’s like we’ve finally rediscovered those things about each other that made us fall in love in the first place. All of the worrying and stress has simply vanished. Thank you Dr Mack for saving my broken Marriage and brought my husband back to me!”.Me and my husband are living together happily again.. All thanks to Dr Mack. If you have any problem contact Dr.Mack now and i guarantee you that he will help you.Email him at.dr.mack201@gmail.com

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