Monday, December 14, 2009

i fell upon a pill so intoxicating I couldn't resist.


"Just because a woman is lovesick doesn't mean she has to take the first pill that comes along"

I have been lovesick for years now, broken by seemingly infallible relationships and bruised by heartbreak. I wasn't looking for pills; in fact, I was avoiding them at all costs. The last thing I needed was a shiny new pill with side effects overriding the benefits that always seemed so dear to me. But I fell upon a pill so intoxicating I couldn't resist. This pill was fascinating, beautiful, the only pill in the world that seemed to be able to make me feel alive, beautiful, and full of hope. This pill was a dreamer, with no doubt about any hardships he couldn't overcome. This pill was an old soul, trapped in a young, beautiful body. This pill had spirit, and interests in things I have always just passed by as common occurrences in everyday life. I didn't want this pill, It was merely to pass the time by in my days of loneliness. This pill dragged me out of the darkness, and into a world of new beginnings, of hope when I thought happiness was impossible. And then this pill moved. Hours and hours away while I was locked down under the fact of my innocence, of my dependence, of my youth living in a household that had a grasp so tight on me I could hardly breathe. This pill moved to a city full of life, where it could thrive and learn at the art school of this pill's dreams. A city of promise and new experiences, while my broken heart was trapped in a suburban town known to promote set-in-stone beliefs and pretty houses and fancy cars. A town promoting one type of people, when all I wanted to do was be with my drug, the drug that listens to the music of the twenties, that has a soul of the fifties, and the unique insight I'm not sure an era has yet seen. This pill inspires me to be my own person, to think deeply about what is important to me, to question my ignorant ways of the past. And soon I will be living in the beautiful city with this pill, flourishing in this town embracing uniqueness, loving the diversity of it, and having hope for those who are too blind to see past the materialism I had been so caught up in. I will soon be able to have my fix, while following my own dreams I didn't quite know I had before my drug drew them out from deep within my soul. My pill is a boy. A boy that showed me I can love again, and not only I can love again, but I can love without limits. Because the miles between us don't matter as long as we both know that my sickness has subsided.


  1. omg! i have a pill right now but im scared to try it because im scared i might get adiccted! im scared of loving and having someone loving me :S
    thanks this is beautiful!

  2. This was truth. I loved it because it relates so much to my own issues of love.

  3. wow you have a way with words. as i read i couldn't believe that you were young. clever concept and not at all hokey at any point. you are so lucky to find someone like that

  4. oh my god. this is phenomenal

  5. Love makes wonders-miracles, non?
    I am searching for my prince too. We all are looking for love. Love is a sunshine into one´s life.
    Love is the most precious value..
    Sometimes our soul-mate is just next to us.. and the one thing that we can do is to open our eyes to see that fact:-)

  6. This is just adorably sweet. I need my pill too :D

  7. love this~ beautifully written.

  8. you write beautifully

  9. beautiful, the way you expressed it was brilliant.

  10. This is beautiful writing

  11. Sweet.. I want a pill like yours..


    I want to share a video, lelove!

    Its about peoples "first crush".

    Hope you like it.


  13. I loved this.
    We're in the same place.

  14. Beautifully written. He sounds like a really great guy. I'm very happy for you.

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