Sunday, April 6, 2014

i survived

Le Love Blog Couple Running On The Beach I Survived Found New Love Two by Esben Bøg Jensen, on Flickr
Photo via: Esben Bøg Jensen

Today I went back to this post, that I wrote August 3rd 2010. Almost 4 years ago. I have forgot how touching it was even for myself reading that. I just read it twice and all the comments. And it made me emotional and most of all, sad. Sad to know how many people out there feeling or have felt exactly the way I did. And how incredibly hurtful love can be.

I stayed with him to February 2012. Can you imagine? Almost two more years after writing that story. And during that time I was even more hurt than before. But to make the end of that story short - I broke up with him. The guy I thought was the one. One early morning in February.

And never have I ever felt more proud of myself. And never did I crawl back, being weak in front of him again. Never.

And today I am writing this because I want to share with you all something I never thought would happen after this terrible heartache.

I met the love of my life. My best friend.

Which wasn't him. And I am the happiest girl you could find out there because I have a man who treats me like something out of a beautiful movie.

I won't say we are perfect, not having fights or sad days. But we treat each other with respect. We might have been going through things that could tear us apart, but we are solving it because there is nothing else than just that. And we are coming out even stronger than we were before. THAT is true love. What I had with that other person four years ago was not.

And today I can remember lying in bed crying every other night those years thinking that I will never stop loving that person who gives me more pain in my heart than being stabbed by a knife.

But I did. I did and I survived.

And I did love him those years.

But in this moment looking at the man I want to marry one day sleeping, I know that this is a different kind of love. A healthy love. A passionate amazing love. A love that was better than I ever thought it could be. A knowing-deep-in-my-heart-I-will-be-with-you-forever love. And so we will. Cause I have never before, with this confidence, said I have really found my true soul mate.


L, I love you with everything I have. Thank you for being you.

*reader submission

21 comments:

  1. Thank you for giving me hope

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  2. Just what I needed to read, broke up with my boyfriend two weeks ago because I suddenly knew he wasn't the one, this gave me hope.
    xx

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  3. I like the definition "healthy love" <3

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  4. I feel you...
    I was deciding to not having relationship. I did it for two years until I met someone and I feel ready for a new relationship. but it didn't last that longer. he left me for another girls. I was the one who desperately wanted him to comeback until a guy come to me. he helps me from trouble, he makes me feel beautiful no matter how ugly I am. he always sees the good in me. we have no idea why we love each other for almost six years until today...
    be patient. the right one will come to you when you less expecting it...

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  5. I also think you really made a point by calling it 'healthy' love because with this description it's really easy to say if you should stay with the person or not. If the love breaks you, makes you feel sad and maybe even ill, it is not healthy and so it is not meant to be.
    Really moving and inspiring text.

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  6. still recovering from being broken to pieces by someone whom i thought was the one but treated me like shit. thank you, i need this. i'm not giving up.

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  7. Thank you so so much for sharing this. Made me feel so much stronger in a decision I just had to make. I will survive this X

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  8. this is magical. all lost and broken souls out thereshould read this. thank you for sharing.

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