Wednesday, February 19, 2014

i will be here waiting

LE LOVE BLOG LOVE STORY LOVE PHOTO IMAGE GIRL WOMAN READING AT NIGHT IN CHAIR WHAT IS LOVE UNREQUITED LOVE WAITING Untitled by Margaret Durow, on Flickr
Photo via: Margaret Durow

Love. What does that mean? Why do people make a big deal out of it? Why does it hurt so much, but at the same time can be the best thing that's ever happened? I am inexperienced and don't know anything about love. I base this thing called "love" on movies, friends and family.

I've seen heartbreaks and smiles travel through their lives. While I sit here; watching over them and taking in all their stories, complaints and personal experiences. I'm getting used to it. It's ok, I might be bitter but no one has the right to judge me.

I have someone I like. I don't want to make a big deal out of it. He doesn't like me back, if he did I think we would be closer than we are right now. We talk every now and then so I guess we're just friends.

He's not someone my friends would want me to be with. I'm attracted to him, though I ignore it. I deny it and throw away my feelings but they keep coming back. So what is it? What is it that I about the guy that I like so much? Or why do I like him?

Is this normal? It seems like it. My feelings come back every time I'm not busy. He pops up in my mind out of the blue. Recently it's been happening more often, it only goes away when I'm busy.

I see the good in him and I want to be there for him. I want to be the one to make him smile. What does this all mean though?

It doesn't hurt. It makes me feel sad every time he's near but we're just friends. I'm ok with it. I'm used to it. Its hard every time he approaches me or even makes simple gestures like putting his hand on my shoulder.

Even though people are irritated by him or dislike him I still see the good in him. Its so powerful it attracts me more to him. My feelings went away but they came back like a, what Miley Cyrus would say, "wrecking ball."

I will be here waiting for that special moment when he sees me as more than just a friend.
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