Photo via: Marija Kovac
I am in love. Or I think I am. Truth is, I'm not sure. I have only had one boyfriend, and I know he is perfect. He says all the right words, he is caring and loving. He has his faults, and isn't perfect - which makes him perfect. I know that he loves me, and I love him. But here's the thing. Since he is my first everything, there is nothing to compare him to. I don't know how it is to have a boyfriend that isn't perfect. Therefore, I don't truly know what I have. And I know how spoiled and unappreciative that sounds. I want to love him, and I do! In some way... but I want to love him the way he deserves. Unconditionally, and appreciate him. They say that you don't know what you have until it's gone. I am afraid to lose maybe the one good thing in my life, but maybe that's exactly what I need to do. Explore other people, let them treat me bad. Have my hopes up, and then get my heart broken.
I don't know... I really don't know. All I know, is that I have found the man I want to live with and who loves me, but I can't appreciate it.
I don't know... I really don't know. All I know, is that I have found the man I want to live with and who loves me, but I can't appreciate it.
