Monday, October 31, 2011

see me too

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I don't really care if anyone sees this or not, it's not really the kind of thing to get published. I just had to say it- I'm in love. That's it, just love! And he doesn't know, and he can't know. The consequences our relationship would create I'm savy enough to understand, and God knows what he thinks of me day today since I'm so much younger and dumber, but I don't care. I'm past caring. Every little ambiguous feeling of doubt that hung around, that still has reason to hang around, is slowly being dismantled because I realize the truth. Ego rem intellecto. If I could scream it on rooftops I would. And I want him to know because if he points out one more guy or girl that I should date I think it might come out anyway.

I want you. It is you! and I think it's only ever going to be you. Not in that 'I'll never find anyone else' sort of way, but I'll never find anyone as interesting, intelligent, witty, funny and perfect for me again. Sometimes I just stare in wonder, and you see it, and look at me like I'm crazy. But you don't understand how crazy I am for you. No one knows. No one needs to know. I'm up and I'm down and in and out and I've realized I don't want it any other way. It's you. It's always been you. I loved you before I knew you. Yes, it happens, even if we're not together.

This isn't a good story, you're just that person I talk to and can't touch. The one who I'll either marry or think about when I'm marrying someone else. I don't necessarily know what true love is, but you've got the rhythm that matches mine. Turn around one day and let me know if you see me too.

20 comments:

  1. This is an awesome blog. Keep going ! I wanted to ask : Are all the sorties reader submissions ? How many submissions do you get?

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  2. this is really sweet. :) writing about this kind of stuff helps - i would know. are all these posts different submissions? who's the actual le love creator?

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  3. OMG. I was just walking on the other side of the street opposite the guy that I think about every day. I wanted him to see me. I hoped he would look to the side and see it was me and be happy to see me. What if he did see me and didn't want to?! I want this guy in the same way you want yours bc he is funny, smart, sweet, edgy and so, so handsome. Sometimes I am afraid what would happen if he did see me. He is the one that I can't get over. To paraphrase Adele, I am afraid he will see me and know that for me, it isn't over.

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  5. Just tell him and get it over with. Life is to short to waste time on idealization. If you have a good relationship with him and if you both have the maturity that you should have if you're even considering a relationship, confessing something as simple as being attracted to him shouldn't ruin anything.

    If it's reciprocated, awesome; it can be the beginning of something great. If not, then it's time to start dismantling your extreme idealist feelings until you find the right one.

    "The one who I'll ... think about when I'm marrying someone else"
    - That's just perverse. Don't you dare marry someone with that mindset.

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  6. See??? I'm not crazy!!

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  7. Tell him, plz tell him, love hurts but its worth it. Tell him. Trust me, what ifs suck real bad.

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  8. I kinda agree with "Kenal", but on the other hand I love that I finally hear about someone who can have a distance crush on someone without it ruining your life. Then again, I have the feeling that you might sugar coat it and that, it is in fact, is ruining your life. Because, as a I mentioned: I have never heard about someone who can have a distance crush on someone and be sort of happy about it.

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  9. Thanks Anonyomous! I feel the same way looking at my guy but he's in a position where it would be inappropriate for me to tell him I love him. The possibility that in two years when I end school it might work out kinda of keeps me hoping. More than anything I just want to see him happy. And the marrying line- I would think of a lot of people when I was marrying someone else, just to wonder. But I think he would stick out especially. If it's not him, I'll find someone else whose great for me in a different way, but I'll always wonder about him because of how perfect he feels. Just wonder, and if I still chose the person I'm marrying in the end, I must love that person a lot!

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  10. take the chance. you don't get it a thousand times.

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  11. I mean, how much older are we talking? And how well do you know this guy. Chances are that you only know some idealized version of him, and not the real him. Also, if he is constantly pointing out people you should date, then that is probably a sign that either a) he is not interested or b) he already knows you like him and wants to get you off his case.

    I had a giant crush like this when I was younger, and since I'd never been in a real relationship I didn't really know what I needed. I worked him up to be the absolute perfect person, and no one could compare. I convinced myself I was in love, when I had no idea what love really entailed. In reality he was not the right person for me, and I have had many experiences and crushes since before finding the love of my life.

    If you simply can't let him go, then my best advice is to tell him how you feel. If he doesn't reciprocate, that will hopefully be enough of a wake up call to start broadening your horizons. And hey, if he likes you back then that's great!

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  13. Completely unhealthy. Hate the line about marrying someone else and thinking of him. De-idealize him and your feelings.

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  15. life is to short.. you got nothing to loose! Go tell him. Best wishes!
    xoxo

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  16. What does ego rem intellecto mean?

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  17. tell him!! and tell us what happens! :)

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  18. this is awesome. it sounds like he is youre best friend and if i were you i would tell him. even though that sounds hard and like a dumb idea he probably feels the same way. Him pointing out guys/girls for you to date is probably just wanting to see if you would go out with anyone else obviously you care alot about him so tell him! jeez, he probably feels the same way.

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