Sunday, June 26, 2011

i want to love. love you.

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ph: manuela

Everyday I tell myself that your not longer a big part of me. Sometimes I really believe it, sometimes I actually think that you don't mean a god damn thing to me. Every time that thought appears I feel relieved, I feel less vulnerable, it feels like you can't affect me anymore.

I've repeated this thought so many times that I've almost made it true. At the same time it makes me so freaking scared of moving forward, cause what happens when you stop loving someone? What happens when you someday wake up and realize that this person actually doesn't mean anything to you? How can you manage to go from 1000 to 0. Cause that day will eventually come. The only thing you have left is the beautiful memories that you hopefully will carry with you your whole life. But I'm so afraid of that day coming, because I don't want it to. I don't want it to happen because I want to love. Love you.

Love,
S

19 comments:

  1. "The only thing you have left is the beautiful memories that you hopefully will carry with you your whole life. "

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  2. Everything you just wrote I said to my friend a half an hour ago. It scares me so to let him go. It scares me that as time goes by it gets a little bit easier. How do I live my life without my love for him?

    Love, Jessica

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  3. i couldn't agree more! I have also lost my boyfriend, because he broke up, and I still love him and I'm scared to let go, because I just want to love him and go back to the time where he loved me.

    xx

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  4. The picture is soooo pretty .. <3

    Love from J

    www.goldenfashiondreams.blogspot.com

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  5. Pretty picture. :)

    -Sarah
    @DearSarah

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  6. You might want to love him, but if it is not replicated, you will be hurt, and it is even painful. Trust me. I have experienced it.

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  7. Beautifully expressed and a wonderfull picture :)

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  8. 'You might want to love him, but if it is not replicated, you will be hurt, and it is even painful. Trust me. I have experienced it. ' - AGREED! nickz40.com

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  9. Just love him if you want to. Better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all, right? Besides, pain isn't something you can avoid. But suffering is. :)

    Take the risk. If it works out, it will be beautiful. If it doesn't, cry over it, learn from it, and move on.

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  10. I love le love, and I just started reading. I will always love le love :)

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  11. I know the feeling.
    I hope you one day will find the strength to move on.

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  12. The mailman came to visit you because I love you.
    If you don't understand this line, I will continue to do the same as you, stranger.

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  13. beautiful. love your blog!

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  14. Dear stranger,

    The Mailwoman

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  15. when you stop loving someone there always comes time when your minds will be ocupied with someone else. dont be afraid of that. it helps. believe me. and maybe this time that person is worth your love

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  16. Dear stranger,

    you lack my love

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  17. Love is a chancetaking. Sometimes, it will turn out good, other times, it feels like hell. You just have to keep fighting for the love you deserve.

    XO Madeleine

    Blog: whitemaskgirl.wordpress.com
    Mail: ladyline@hotmail.se

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  18. I feel the same right now. I love him so much and for nothing! I too fear that a day will come when I would finally move forward, maybe without even knowing so, but I'm afraid I'd be no longer myself.

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  19. I will always have the beautiful memories. I don't know if the Love will go away... and I don't know if I really want it to, as hard as it is to live without. "I have stopped seeing this as a love lost, and simply accepted it for the gift that it was. All I can really do is hope that what you said about love is true, and that it really does fade."

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