Monday, February 7, 2011

honey, i'd do anything


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I imagine you'll appear out of nowhere. I'll be sitting on a bus full of all my friends. I imagine you will walk towards me and look at me with regret in your eyes. I imagine I'll be surprised in the expected kind of way, look back at you and shake my head because I'm tired. Tired of everything, but mostly tired of being without you. I imagine you'll simply say three sentences: I am sorry. I can't live without you. I love you. I imagine I will desperately hold back my tears, and then I will tell you I've moved on. I imagine you will get off the bus, and I will break down. He will put his strong arms around me, and I'll repeat it over and over again. I've moved on, I 've moved on, I've moved on. It will be a lie, and this will be our goodbye. In fact, I wish it was our goodbye.

It's been six months. I have imagined this every day. Honey, I'd do anything.

15 comments:

  1. Oh my Gosh.....i could have written this. i think about this all the time. we live 5 hours apart but i keep imagining that he drives here to see me and apologize. it has also been about six months for me...but i have been holding out hope something will happen. i think im slowly starting to accept it won't, but thats not my problem or that im not worth it. its because he is a coward

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  2. and I could have written that ^

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  3. Anon , I'm the coward but with the Atlantic between us. Now I know better and would swim across it for her but it's too late :(

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  4. this is so sad i can relate!!! :( my best friend just left to be in australia for work for 6 months...idk what to do and im in love with him. i want to be with someone else to see if its real love...

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  5. I tried to move on, and tried to fall in love with somebodu else, but I couldn't, 'cause I still love him, he left without saying anything, I should hate him for doing all this to me :'(

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  6. So sad ..... to know some one same with me like fool and figure out some body start drik and always : ) good lucky

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  7. It's like i read my own thoughts...

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  8. I sometimes kid myself that I've moved on but somedays its a lie. Sigh. To hear the words "Im sorry" would be amazing.

    Melanie's Randomness

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  9. for me it has been 18 months. I think about you every day. my man

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  10. Its like when I go to sleep , right around the time I get this sick sadness of being alone and realizing it . I have so much angst and amiss , why wasnt I enough . I find myself praying , hell come back and be sincere sweet and sorry , I imagine it . Id stayed away for 4 month then I saw him and it was nothing like I imagined .
    Now Ive gone back to where I was avoiding town , and making up storys in my head conversations with imaginary him . Still pray still hopeing he'll she me and I'll be more than enough one day . Its good to know Im not the only one who imagines conversation with intriguing men .

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  11. I could have written this as well.. officially i've "moved on" and got a new boyfriend, mostly cause i was so lonely, and i know it's so selfish and mean of me. I've tried so hard to fall in real love with him, cause he's perfect, but I can't. I still think of my ex every fuckin day, and the truth is if he'd come back and said he wants me back, I would have jumped in his arms right away.

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  12. ugh, I thought the same way. then he did come home after 6 month but not to say I'm sorry, he came back into the arms of another girl who lives in the same town as myself. for he had been dating her the whole time long distance after telling me it had to end. I could just not make him happy with the distance. yeah she's been to visit him too. maybe that's why he has pretended that I no longer exsist. he knows I would hunt them down, if only I were that strong :(

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