Sunday, October 17, 2010

i still have no idea


unknown

you wore denim pants with holes in them and played in a band. i spent night after night looking at you through the crowd feeling worse and worse because you never noticed me. you were high and low in the room, mingling, laughing, smoking, flirting, and i was always on the side trying my best to catch every glimpse i could of you without you noticing

often i would sit outside for a while when the nervousness got to me, and one night you came out and sat down, you asked if i was ok, and it made me so nervous i couldn't even answer, i just started walking away from you, but you followed me asking again and again and finally i blurted out that i couldn't even talk to you right now because you are too much. too much smiles and looks and lips

you touched my hair and then my shoulder, and we started walking towards the beach, i didn't say much but you kept telling me about your family, about music you liked and your night so far, and i could hardly hear anything you said because i was too afraid of making a fool out of myself

and all i could really hear was the sound of your feet against the asphalt, the rocks and then the sand beneath us. we sat on the grass and none of us said a word, you touched my face. i was trembling. i wanted to kiss you so badly, but didn't dare. you told me i was pretty, that i made you nervous. i didn't believe a word you said. the energy in and around us was almost surreal. it knocked me over

i said i wanted to swim and you looked a little scared and that calmed me down a bit. you followed and soon we were in with water to our waists and you were so cold i could see your goosebumps, but you smiled anyway and we just stood there, and stared at each other for what felt like a century

and that was it

i still have no idea what that meant

-exoplanetarium

36 comments:

  1. this is extraordinary

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  2. I feel like I've had nights like this. When it's late and dark and slightly too cold, and there are so many people by the water. I swear. The water kisses the air and turns it into magic.

    I'm glad you got to experience this, no matter what it means.

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  3. two energies passing each other in this universe, colliding and trying to become one...

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  4. Very beautiful what this anonimous above said. About the story, it seems to me as a tale of a summer night. So beautiful that you question yourself how many happen every millennium...

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  5. i whis something like this would happend to me

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  6. cutest story ever.
    i see myself in part of this.

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  7. I wish I could experience this
    But it means nothing
    Try to work it out 0.o

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  8. You need to continue to see him and go to his gigs and everything. He really likes you and you like him and there is achance you can make it work. At least you need to try dont just leave it there, or you regret it some point of your life..
    Wish you all the best:)

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  9. you know, this is amazing; you are really lucky.

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  10. i wonder how recent this was. you could turn the spark into a bonfire.

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  11. It was a spark of admiration that could be turned to love if not left to die.

    Lovers' Shore
    http://lovers-shore.blogspot.com/

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  12. Great blog. I guess I... LOVE it! Brilliant.
    LFN

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  13. beautiful, wonderful, stunning... <3

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  14. that was beautiful. magic.

    http://sartorialme.blogspot.com

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  16. Don't give up, and next time don't be shy! What do you have to loose??? Good luck, I envy you for being in love =)

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  17. I see right through this.

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  18. this is absolutely beautiful :) extrodinary.

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  19. this is one of my favorite LeLove entries ever..

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  20. one of our biggest flaws is not believing the things others see in us. <3

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  21. does this author have a blog?? such a beautiful piece, so much emotion...love it

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  22. try not to find meaning in it. simply enjoy it for what it was. a moment of desire and what could be. wishing you more moments like this!

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  23. this is beautiful... i'm sure this sort of thing doesn't happen very often, and even if nothing happened between you two because of it ( that's what i'm guessing from the last sentence anyway) but i think your very lucky to have experienced something like that :-)


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  25. this is beautiful... what you experience was the meeting and connetion of your souls... it is one of those thiongs that can be explained but in that moment everything makes sense and seems right. never let go of the feeling

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  26. i wrote this. this is my blog: exoplanetarium.blogspot.com

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  27. that is something out of a book girl. dont let him go without doing something about that chemistry. <3

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  28. i had a very similar experience...except the night where we finally really talked and had that crazy energy was new year's eve. we spent several nights over the next two and a half years experiencing that crazy energy, but never having a stable relationship. i finally let him go 3 years ago...i haven't felt anything that wonderful, or nearly as devastating since.

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  29. "and that was it

    i still have no idea what that meant"

    I love this! I love how you tell the story. Beautiful.

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  30. I think that's what makes it wonderful. All the animosity and what could have been. All the uncertainty. That's what's got you the most.

    I can't surely say that what could have been would have been better because we'll never know, right? What if it ends badly? What if it's not what you think it is? What if he meant it differently?

    The uncertainty is what keeps you hanging on to that night. My sister once told me that that's what makes "one great love" great - not ending up together.

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