Monday, March 31, 2014

a memory

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It's time to let you go now. I've been keeping you with me for too long and now I have to let you go. You went away a long time ago, but now I have to release you from me. I don't love you anymore and you are not the one I once loved. Every trace of what we had is forever gone. And that is okay, because you and I are over. We don't exist anymore. We are nothing.

It's time for me to let go of the anger, the hurt and the resentment. I don't need it anymore. Sure, I feel much hate for you, but it's time to put it aside. I don't wish you good, but I don't want to wish you evil anymore either. I want to let you go for good because you are out of my life.

You have someone new now, and I never ever thought I would say this, but it's okay now. Not because I want you to be happy, but because it was not supposed to be me anymore. It's just a stupid girl you choose to love for now. You don't want me anymore and that's okay too. I don't wish to be with you because with you I can not be the best version of me. You don't make me the happiest. Sure, there was a time I felt like the happiest person in the world, but it only lasted for days or hours. I deserve to be happy all the time and go through a more normal amount of bad times. And after you, I think I have had enough of them for a while.

I will keep you as a memory inside me. Not in my heart, but my head. You are done living in my heart and that's okay too. We had good times and we had bad times. You taught me a lot about life, art and music, and I would lie if I wasn't happy for it, but now I have found my own stuff, I am managing on my own. I have become this wonderful, strong, independent and happy person. And I would not have been like this by your side.

I will stop talking about you, I will try to stop trashing your name and I will put you in the past where you belong. It's almost been two years since it all began. It's time for you to leave my heart and I am letting you. I don't need you in a good way, I am happy in my life and I am deeply thankful for the time we shared, but it was over a long time ago. And I am sort of fine with that now. I don't want to thank you for anything, and I don't forgive you for what you did to me, but I am moving on. I wish to use my time and mind on other things. So now I am finally letting you go and leaving you in the past as a memory.
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