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There's this guy who is from CA and came to NJ for construction work. He came in and out of the bar I worked at and finally we exchanged numbers. We hung out a few times, and he had to leave earlier than he thought. He started to tell my Best Friend before he left, that he would move here to be with me and how much he liked me... Of course she told me, and not gonna lie, I got freaked out a little bit. Wondering how somebody can like me so much to move here, because I'm very shy, and was with him. Majority of the time, it was him who was talking and me just listening. Something I forgot to mention, he is 35 years old, and I am 21. So he eventually vocalized this to me, and with him being so much older, I pushed back a bit and said that he's getting ahead of himself and that I am not looking to jump into anything. I liked him, I really did, but the fact that he was 14 years older than me and lived across the country, I knew my parents and siblings would not agree and accept. We continued to talk a week after he went back, and I noticed my feelings were growing stronger for him. It got to the point where, I was hoping to look down and see his name every time my phone vibrated. Long story Short- Yesterday we didn't talk until night. I texted him and he was with his brother, and seemed to not be talkative, so I left it be because he hasn't seen anyone in months. He texted me later that night to say goodnight, but I just got a weird vibe from it that something was different. Today is the first day I haven't heard from him, and its driving me crazy. Now I'm sitting here, second guessing myself, wondering If I did something or said something, or maybe if his brother said something to him about it all. I don't want to reach out to him and bother him. I don't want to come off clingy and what not. But now I'm thinking to myself, why am I feeling this sort of way, when just the other week, I was so turned off by what he was feeling and saying. I just need advice outside of my friends. An honest opinion whether I should just go with my gut and say screw it, age doesn't matter and neither does distance, Like he said to me- "Love has no limitations, no boundaries, no age, no distance. Fear does this!"