Saturday, December 14, 2013

i'm not sure

LE LOVE BLOG LOVE PHOTO COUPLE PERSPECTIVE SEE MAN BETWEEN LEGS OCEAN LOVE STORY NICE GUY BUT NOT SURE ABOUT LOVE Untitled by Marija Kovac, on Flickr
Photo via: Marija Kovac

I am in love. Or I think I am. Truth is, I'm not sure. I have only had one boyfriend, and I know he is perfect. He says all the right words, he is caring and loving. He has his faults, and isn't perfect - which makes him perfect. I know that he loves me, and I love him. But here's the thing. Since he is my first everything, there is nothing to compare him to. I don't know how it is to have a boyfriend that isn't perfect. Therefore, I don't truly know what I have. And I know how spoiled and unappreciative that sounds. I want to love him, and I do! In some way... but I want to love him the way he deserves. Unconditionally, and appreciate him. They say that you don't know what you have until it's gone. I am afraid to lose maybe the one good thing in my life, but maybe that's exactly what I need to do. Explore other people, let them treat me bad. Have my hopes up, and then get my heart broken.

I don't know... I really don't know. All I know, is that I have found the man I want to live with and who loves me, but I can't appreciate it.
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