Tuesday, May 28, 2013

i wish i had said yes

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ph: Cristiana Ferreira

That night on the beach of the lake in our small town was the best night of my life.

You drove us down there in your giant truck--the one I keep telling you sounds like a speed boat--the Pacificos you packed so carefully in the cooler gently clanking with every turn up the winding road, the windows down, the sun in our eyes and the wind whipping my hair around my face.

We took our beach chairs down to the edge of the water and, realizing we had forgotten a bottle opener, attempted to use a sharp rock we found and we laughed so hard we cried at how ridiculous we must've looked. It was so easy to sit there with you. So simple. So comfortable. We talked for hours--nearly six, to be exact--and no one had ever made me feel so at ease with myself until right then.

We talked about everything--our childhoods, our passions, our life goals, and we made each other laugh until we couldn't breathe anymore. We talked about everything except her. In fact, even later, when we were sitting again in that giant truck, trying to warm up long after the sun had gone down and we confessed our feelings for each other, her name never left your lips.

I cried. I'm sorry. But you told me you felt strongly about me. You told me you thought I was beautiful, and you told me you wished we could be together. You asked me if you could kiss me, and in the darkness that was only interrupted by the soft blue glow of the dashboard, you never looked more handsome. My body ached from the laughing and in that moment I was so tempted to say yes. But your girlfriend... You love her. I know you love her. You have a ring for her, and I think you're planning on proposing soon. No matter what feelings we have for each other, no matter how real they are...she was there first. So I said no.

Sometimes, I wish I had said yes.

8 comments:

  1. The things id do to sense a moment like that. Being in a situation like that makes you want to fall in love. To say I'm yours and your mine is something else.

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  2. It's so hard not to get swept away in the moment, you stayed strong.

    Carina xx
    http://www.carstina.com/

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  3. I salute your strength... You made the right decision. As you already know, he is unfaithful.
    Walk away while you can. You deserve someone better, someone who is exclusively yOurS....

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  4. How can you let your self get in a moment like that when you knew he had a gf?!?!?!?

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  6. I haven't had that exact experience but I can relate. I have said no to so many things and opportunities and possible relationships and now I wish I had done something instead of being scared.

    Erin ☂

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  7. Clearly a strong and independent woman, Well done for staying strong :)

    ~ Melissa

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  8. That was an awesome story. I'm guessing we're to believe this was an actual event and not fiction, if so kudos for you knowing where to draw the line, feelings or not. If more women knew when and where to draw the line i don't think we'd have as many broken homes or hearts as we do. Great story.

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