Wednesday, April 10, 2013

why love?

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Today I have learnt not to love. Because to love, is to get hurt and one's heart can only take so much. Time and time again I put myself out there, open, trusting, loving. But what I receive in return is nothing shy of selfishness and self-centeredness.

So why love?
Why love when it hurts so much? Why give yourself to someone when they'll just throw you away later? Why?
Call me jaded, but I like to think of myself as a realist. A realist who has been burned far too many times.

As much as I would like to go into details, I don't think they matter. Each incident, each person, each relationship, it's all the same, just with different colours, circumstances, nuances.

I'd like to stop myself here, before I go on any further and say that everything was my fault. From the beginning to the end, it was all stupid, trusting me. So there. You're free of any guilt whatsoever. But just so you know, I thought you were different.

I don't think this will ever happen to me for a while because this risk is just something that I'm not going to take so soon or so easily. The pain, at one point of time was unbearable but now has just numbed to a dull thudding ache.

So somebody, anybody, please tell me, why love?
Because I sure as hell don't know.

-Alex Chenkov

14 comments:

  1. "they'll just throw you away later? " - how do you know?
    Maybe IT IS different.
    Never give up on love, good luck :)

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  2. Never give up, you never know when you'll find love!
    x
    Stella from a A Shiny Place

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  3. I agree. I'm sorry, but all my friends have been through it and they still believe in it. I went through and I can not for the sake of my life figure out what the purpose was. To have memories? Why? They are just memories that make me feel sad everytime.

    "Better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all" is not true. I'd rather live not knowing the pain and instead still have dreams about how wonderful love should be. Now I just know that it is nothing but pain, tears, and a gut-wrenching feeling.

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  4. The greatest thing you'll ever learn, is to love, and be loved in return.

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  5. The hardest lesson to learn is how to love yourself. Master that and the rest will take care of itself.

    Love is a blessing in all it's forms don't discredit it.

    Much Love,

    xx

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  6. 'Love is a blessing in all it's forms don't discredit it. '

    This.

    <3

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  7. I do the same and always feel the same.

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  8. I Agree.. I too have burnt my fingers far too many times trusting in the damn four letter word L**E...
    I would prefer to live not knowing what it is love than being in it and then cast away like you don't mean anything...
    It is nothing but heart squeezing machine out there every time you try to get in...

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  9. For love is the greatest gift! Do not forget that 'love' comes in several forms and although I know you are acknowledging Eros (Romance), please remember the beauty of other types. In my humble opinion nothing is more important than the unconditional love given to you by your friends and family. So while you're heart is healing, which it will, concentrate on those individuals around you who deserve and appreciate your love. Offer your warmth and kindness to strangers. Run free, find your passion and dedicate yourself to re-igniting that beautiful fire in your chest. Let yourself fall in love with your life and when the time is right someone special will be there and you will realize how much stronger and independent you have become. Most importantly, forgive. The weight you are barring on those shoulders is only holding you down.
    Love fiercely sweetheart.
    Peace & Love x

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