Friday, November 16, 2012

to be free of you

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ph: Kate Pulley

I can't quite remember your face anymore. But the mention of your name would still conjure up a feeling I can't quite express.To be honest, I did once think that you could be the one. But you certainly didn't mean it when you said you loved me. Nor did you mean it when you laid down with me. Was I just another one of your many virgin conquests or was I just another pit stop in that unlovable life of yours? Wait, hold. I don't want to know. You are not of my concern anymore.

Frankly, I don't feel for you anymore. I don't love you. I've moved on an am happy with my man. Yet, I still need an outlet to let my feelings go. I need to tell the world what I could not do anywhere else. I need to let go of a secret that has tied me to you. I don't need sympathy, I just don't want to keep quiet anymore. I want to be free of this burden. I want to be free of you.

Ladies and gentlemen please be my witness as I confess myself. Yes, I once did give up my pride and hang on to a relationship that could never work. You were selfish and arrogant but I was pregnant. It was your doing . You knew it. Yet all you could say was, "You don't have to keep it". Yes, you were a cruel man. I have no other way to go. My mother was under depression and you knew that at that moment that you were my all, but you deserted me. You had an affair while I was aborting my child. Yes, I aborted my child. I was a sinner and I was a fool. Dear lord, forgive me.

It took me long enough to heal, but today Mr. J, I am a woman with more pride and success than you could ever pin down on me. I am in love again and I shall no longer bear this burden. Ever. I don't know and I don't want to know anything about you anymore. You can live that selfish life of yours and lie to the world about what a bitch I was. You can wear a mask and fool the world. From this moment on, I am set free of the truth. I will no longer have to lie. I am whole again. I have loved ones to warm my life and a man that is faithful and loves me for all that I am.

I am loved and I shall love.

15 comments:

  1. so very true!
    I was also with someone who was completely selfish, who made me out to be a horrible person when I did nothing but help them and make them happy.Glad things have finally worked out!

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  4. i cant know whats it like to feel that way. because i ve never been through something like that. but what i know for sure is, you ve come out of this the best way you could. you are strong and no one can put you down! cherish what you have right now and dont burden yourself with thoughts of the past. the future is always a better place!


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  5. What a brave woman you are.

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  6. I like the last sentence. I shall love and I am love. Sure you will.

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  7. That was very touching. Thank you for telling us your secret.

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  8. so happy you were able to move on from this guy. Some people dont deserve love, and sadly there are so many of them around, just using people for their own amusement. Enjoy your new found happiness, at least there is a silver lining

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  9. every women in her life deserves a man, who would truly love her.. because deep inside the heart of woman, there lies an innocent soul, who just wants to receive and give love!!!

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  10. I am completely touched! How brave you are!

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  11. Amen! I absolutely adore your courage! Keep up the good work girl! Someday you'll find the one :)

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