Friday, August 31, 2012

will you actually try...

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ph: Among Dreams

Let's go back to the beginning. It was quite unexpected you see, you and I. You had your eyes on me even while I was in a 3 year relationship. Things didn't work out of course. You asked me out on dates, I refused. What can I say? I was afraid.. afraid of meeting someone new, afraid of trying once again, afraid of the pain that love brings. So who'd have guessed that after a year of not seeing each other that things would change?

It was a casual dinner. I thought of it as nothing more than hanging out. But yet, as the night wore on, that instant connection and chemistry was there. We ate, we talked, we laughed. There was such a comfortability between us.

As time wore on, our relationship progressed. My friends loved you, your friends loved me. Everything seemed right. Although there were kinks in our relationship, we tried to push through them. Maybe it was your lack of experience of being in a relationship. Who knows? All I do know is that I love you. But yet, something holds me back from being head over heels in love. I need that gentleness, I need someone to wrap their arms around me and tell me they love and miss me. Yet, you hold back. You say that you are not used to opening up about your emotions and that hurts. If you truly care about a person, all that should come second nature. Well at least to me it should. I feel my walls are back up.. and I hate that feeling. I want to move forward with you, with US, but yet I hold back. You told me the other day that I complete you. Yet, as those words spill from your mouth, I wonder if you complete me. I know what I want in life and I know what I want from the one I love. The questions in my mind eat at me everyday. Can you be the one to give that to me? Will actions speak louder than words? Will you actually try versus just saying that you will? Do I see myself with you for the rest of my life? Or have I simply made a mistake and once again will be left hurt from all the pain that love brings?

10 comments:

  1. beautiful collection, every single one of them had their own blow.Superb!!!
    Thanks for the effort and also thanks for sharing.
    Regards,
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  2. This is exactly what I feel right now...
    Comparing with the old time we had, I keep doubting if this is just another game for him. Being more and more serious about this relationship makes me painful, but I've stucked on it, and there's no way back...
    Thanks for sharing. It reminds me I'm not the only one suffering this....

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  3. oh so sweet love - I long for it <3

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  4. I know all about you and him. I know all about you. I made a big mistake in ever loving you. I realize that now. Most of all, I am sorry for what I did to B. I am sorry that I ever met you. I thought you were worth all of it. I was completely wrong, and it was the biggest mistake of my life. You don't know how to tell the truth, and you really just make me want to vomit. I can't believe that I loved you. I really can't, You are filthy liar. Have fun with your ugly douche you ugly douche.

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    1. Oh well that's mature. Nobody's perfect, but you don't have to grind them down just 'cause anonymous here made a mistake, however big or small it was.

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  5. You are right. Its not mature. I'm just really hurt. I was hurt repeatedly for a very long time by this person, who is a pathological liar. I did not realize it at the time. Anywhoo, best of luck to you and everyone else. Find someone good. There are good people in this world. Get over the bad as quickly as you can.

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  6. About you being in love, you say you love him but don't you love everybody, you seem like you do. Your love is not generic but you are just a loving person. So you love him, yes, but you love everybody. Are you willing love him different than you love everybody else? Do you have a love made just for him or are you just going to love him like you love everybody else? So is it about you loving him or is it about you being involved with loving him?

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  7. If you love someone, you love him just for him, like he is, not because he seems like the person you want in your dream. This is not loving. If you have pain because someone is not like you dream, the responsability of the pains (your and his) is yours.
    If you want to be really loved, give your heart with respect, don't begin to have expectancies.

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  8. Thinking makes you doubt more. Don't try to be perfect, to make the perfect choice. Don't demand perfect. Don't be afraid to make mistakes. Trust. Go for it.

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  9. Wow, awesome weblog structure! How lengthy have you ever been running a blog for? you made running a blog look easy. The whole look of your web site is fantastic, let alone the content material!

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