Tuesday, July 3, 2012

to just look at me and make me feel

girl alone at party love quote blog when your crush is dancing with another girl someone else
ph: weheartit + typelikeagirl

so..I'm one of those people that never really likes anyone.. in high school Ive just never thought there was a point to having a relationship, i haven't shown interest in a guy for months maybe even adding up to a year and finally i start to notice this boy noticing me and of course it felt good to be noticed by someone.. i decide not to tell anyone but one night my best friend went out to this party and he asked her about me and when she told me he asked about me it only made me like the whole idea of him more so from then on i tried to pull myself together more for school, trying to walk in the hallways he walks in, make myself noticeable and for me that is putting myself out there, so i decide to open up to my best friend and tell her how i felt about him which was a huge step for me so its been this month of intense eye contacts and i always see him looking my way but he never is anywhere i am on the weekends and then finally i go to a party this Friday and he is there..he starts to gravitate towards where i am and we are so close back to back and I'm getting anxious and don't know what to do with myself and really am nervous at this point then we kind of separate but he lingers around where i am i try and say hi but he seemed to intimidated by me and it got kind of awkward, then my best friend starts to talk to him and i hear her bringing up my name and what not then all of a sudden his hands are around her hips but he still just stares at me and seems to try to get my attention, they end up "hooking up" and i try to act like I'm not hurting and i would never have expected me to get so wound up about something like this but its really getting to me and i cant seem to stop thinking about it. why her not me? i guess she is kind of easy and really is one of those girls that you know isn't going to turn you down but out of all the guys she could have chose she chose him and why does he have to just look at me and make me feel like he wants something from me or maybe he will grow a pair and come talk to me ? the one time i open up i get smacked right back down and not just by some lame girl that doesn't mean anything to me but its my best friend, and the truth is now i only want him more..and i feel so embarrassed that i even said anything to anyone about it and i know she said something to him about me which just makes me humiliated.. ahh dreading Monday

18 comments:

  1. Please learn to use punctuation.

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    1. I like it without punctuation. It's a common writing style for poems and such, it adds pace/excitement to the piece

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    2. exactly anonymous nr. 3 it's pure enough to be in a journal, it's pure enough to be in someone's head

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  2. your best friends a bitch

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  3. Your friend's a bitch. Period. You don't do that to your friends, especially when you know how they feel.

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  4. OK, she is not really a friend to you, which is something you already know. I feel that since she knew you liked him and she could tell he liked you too she wanted to take him. Seems like she was jealous for the attention you were getting. Not a nice person. As for opening up to someone, don't feel embarrassed. You are only human. A woman. And women and men are attracted to each other. ABSOLUTELY NATURAL. No embarrassment needed. The only thing you might consider thinking twice about is who you confide in. Now for this guy, wow is he immature. Grown men won't hide from speaking to you. They want to speak to you. He is kind of gutless. And settling for an easy mark when he clearly wanted you...very immature. Now I'm not saying to not be friends with him, maybe you are still interested, but be very clear about who you are dealing with. He is the kind of guy who will obviously take years to grow up - if that ever happens to him. Now for you, march right in to school with your head up, feel strong and confident. You have everything you need to get whatever you want. If you want to talk to him or any other guy this week go for it! I work almost exclusively with men and let me tell you it is easy to talk to them. Say anything. Start with something small and random like the weather, the most common ice breaker -because it works. Also, another tip, give them a small, tiny , compliment about themselves. Like if they won a game or got great marks at something - make some off handed congrats about it. It will make them notice you. Do not try to chase them. It's not a great approach. Things will flow smoother if you let them ask you out. But, don't be silent! There is no sense in it. If you want to say hello do and feel great about it! Confidence is sexy! Men will respond to your energy. Good luck! :)

    P.S. Avoid that girl. She wants what you have. Even if you find a different guy, I would bet she would go after him, too.

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  5. not a best friend at all!
    at least you know it now.
    forget about them both.

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  6. You should "grow a pair" next time and do something. Why is it only him?
    And.. Your "friend" needs to go!

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  7. In my opinion this is definitly NOT what I call "best friend". I hope you can get over him soon and meet someone who is better for you.

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  8. You know, she's embrassing, if I were you, I would just talk to her openly again- not like you did before- I mean;
    Ask her self-confidently: "Why did you take the guy I love away, when you knew my feelings ?"
    I know many people like her- they always make others feel sorry, when it's their own fault ! They just put the things the way they want them to be ! Just talk to her like that, so that she hasn't any excusion left !
    If she tells you that she just played around with ya, ignore her. If she comes your way- look at her with cold eyes ;D But don't tell her a bitch or such, don't sink to her level ^^
    Your great, I can understand you. I wish you the best. Be self-confident, that's what matters.

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  9. It is hard to hear it, but you need to. He is not the one for you! There is someone out there for you:)

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  10. really that's not your friend ... a friend does not do that

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  11. friend's don't do that, he's not a friend :(

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  12. Wow, this happened to me a few weeks ago, it's like I've written it..

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  13. Some thing wrong in life that we never change...and this wrong thing which happend you that is also can never change....so go on....and in this world best friends is only our parents.....be strong

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  14. Hey! I've read your story. She is not really your friend, if she were, she would never choose a guy after you. I'm a girl like you, You know, as you describe yourself, I have the same personality. But you have to remember that everything leaves a lesson, you will not always win and its the first time, it just went wrong but it doesnt mean that it will go wrong everytime!
    Appreciate youself more, you are beautiful and the world is very big, there are a lot of people out there trying to find someone, you may be that someone. And remember that "everything that doesnt kill you, makes you stronger."

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