Saturday, May 5, 2012

instruction manual for love

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Here is my story, as of now, in the middle of the now:

Now is one of those times I so desperately wish I had an instruction manual for love. Because I really don't want to mess up on this one. On this guy.

We met at a party, he's the friend of a friend. We drunkenly talked all night. There was a major, stomach-lurching connection. He was so cute and so charming. Then he kissed me. And I pulled away. Me, the girl who loves kissing more than any other aspect of physical love, I pulled away from his kiss. The spark was so overwhelming, I could barely handle myself, never mind the fact that I was pretty drunk. We kissed twice more before a friend pulled me aside and told me in no uncertain terms that she'd had a crush on him for a long time. My drunk self overreacted and went home with a guy friend who was leaving then.

Did it look like I totally ditched the chemistry boy for the guy friend? Absolutely. So I did something any girl would do, and took the leap and sent him a message via facebook. I told him I didn't want things to go too far but he was practically charming the pants off of me, so I left before I messed things up. I never got a response to my message.

Flash forward two weekends and he showed up at the end of the night for a friend's birthday celebration. He gave me a big hug on the dance floor before retreating to talk with a friend from out of town. Then I got stepped on while dancing, so I decided to go talk to him. Again, incredible connection, great conversation until we got kicked out of the area we were talking in. We got split up and went our separate ways for the night.

This is the point I get to with men. I meet them, they seem interested, and then where does it go from there? Nowhere. I can't figure out the way to make a move and strike the balance between not seeming too desperate or needy and actually wanting him to know that I really do give a damn about what happens between us.

This is when I'd give anything to have a piece of paper that just says simply "Do this: Say this: Then kiss him. Then fall in love. The end." But that would be too damn easy, wouldn't it?

6 comments:

  1. "Nothing worth having comes easy."

    I like to believe that's true. It's life I guess, and in the end, it will just happen. Even if it took you a lot to get to that point.

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  2. Some times it gets difficult to get what we want... Well written

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  3. Hello
    Glorious read! I wish to thank you on your time for this. The articles is really excellent!

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  4. Thank you so much for your entry.
    Sometimes I feel like I am the only girl that feels this way. You have 100% captured all of my "relationships"... not that I can really even call them that.

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  5. Hey, I can totally relate to that feeling. Right now, it is happening to me, I am interested in a kind, cute and intelligent guy, he seems "kinda" interested, but it seems that every move I do or every word I choose to say, makes things awkward and probably that's why we have been talking for months and still nothing happened...if you want you can actually read more about it through my posts, cause he's the M. I always talk about :) Sometimes I just wish I had that piece of paper and didn't have to try that hard to impress someone...Kisses*

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