Sunday, March 4, 2012

what do i do?


ph: Monica Craik

Holy shit. I can’t take it anymore. It’s unbearable and verging obsessive now. You have taken over my mind like some disease. Or many a drug that takes my life over. I am addicted. But this isn’t bad. It’s only bad because I haven't had the courage to talk to you yet. You have taken over my mind. And I know it’ll stop if I talk to you. But I can’t. Your silence, your shyness, it intimidates me more than anything else in the world. More than any outgoing guy that could not be any sexier. Maybe I am infatuated by the prospect of who you are. The fact that I know so little about you, and can’t seem to find anything more out about you. I sound like a stalker basically. But I know it’s just a crush. I have a massive crush on you. I don’t let it take me over in that I follow you everywhere you go. But when you walk into a room, you’re all I see. Everything else is a blur, all out of focus. The aperture in my eyes are large, nothing is in focus expect you. I wonder what goes on through your mind. You seem purposeful in life. You also just hang out. I wonder if you notice me. I wonder if I am anything to you. I wonder if those moments where you catch me staring mean anything. I wonder if you know, because I really feel like you do. I don’t think I could be any more obvious without saying the words themselves. At the same time, I am not asking you to ask me out. I don’t expect that at all. It’s just not like you. I know its not that I am not good enough. It’s that you don’t even get to the point where you’d consider if I am even worth your time. So what do I do? This crush seemed doomed to nothing. It keeps me from doing work, it keeps me from studying, it keeps me from sleeping. It keeps me happy. It keeps me hopeful. It makes me believe in tomorrow. But what do I do? I am so utterly hung up on you, and I have no idea what to do. The solution seems so simple. Be brave, talk to him, ask him to dinner maybe if I was feeling gutsy. But I am so scared; your silence scares me. I am stuck. What do I do? What do I do?

15 comments:

  1. i am in the exact same situation, the guy in question is so reserved so private so unwilling to open up, it makes me go after him harder. it honestly is so sexy to me, haha but i told him because i was so sick of holding all of it in and finally after months he is starting to let me inside his head, his inner world and i dont regret a thing :) its an amazing feeling ...

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  2. Call, email, or text, but communicate. Good luck.

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  3. thats is everthing thats in my mind right now abouttbis guy....i swear....i got my opportunity and did not say anything i just smile and said hi like always

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  4. thanks you helped me to finish my song, and go for it!! x

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  5. Been through this situation.
    Just take the first move and talk to him in order to start to communicate together and then if you still like him call him out or something like that.
    The most important for me is to know one another.

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  6. Hello
    Many thanks, fairly refreshing, I enjoyed reading your article, You are wonderful!
    Thank you!

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  7. Things are not always what they seem. Love can be terrible when the you don't know the person you are in love with even worse when you think you do. Make sure you know what you are letting yourself in for, go for it but be cautious.

    Best wishes with it.

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  8. To be or not to be?

    I think you should tell him. I haven't and I'm still regretting and keep askin' myself ''What if''... It's the worst feeling, WORSE than being rejected, I can tell ya!

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  9. don't think...just do something.

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  10. You have nothing to lose, if you don`t try you`ll never know. And to get something new you need to be brave and do something you have never done before. Good luck!

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  11. Think about it this way: Whats the worst that can happen?

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  12. It's a 'no' you have ans a 'yes' you can get.

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  13. Hi there :)

    Let me first say that I have never truly been in love, not the way I am now.

    To keep my story short, I too am in the same situation where I like a guy so much that people around us are start to notice and think that I have a love in my life while nothing has happened yet.

    Take a chance, start talking to him as communication is key in my point of view. Ask him out, send him a text whenever you feel like it, ask him silly things ... do what you feel like doing or saying and see how he responds.

    One of my friends said, take a chance because the feeling of 'what if' can be worse and after all you can't loose what you never had she said.

    Good luck!

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