Wednesday, February 29, 2012

give me a chance?

ph: hollypotato


You got me. You got me and you don’t want me. People keep telling me that this is just another crush. They keep apologizing for the fact that you don’t seem interested. They keep telling me that I should move on. What they don’t understand is that this is not your run of the mill crush. I don’t want to give up on you yet. Even though you never gave me the chance, I’m not ready to throw in the towel.

We met studying abroad. That’s when it hit me. We had had a class together freshman year but didn’t even realize the other's existence. As soon as you opened your mouth and revealed your witty sense of humor and cute mid-western accent I wanted to be your best friend. And that is exactly how it started. I had a fatty friend crush on you. I didn’t see you in the romantic sense and yet I wanted to spend every second with you. You were nice and charming and funny. And as we spent weekends traveling to new places I got to learn little things about you. Like how you are afraid of birds after freaking out when we fed the pigeons in San Marcos Square in Venice. Or how you have the biggest sweet tooth and could never turn down a gelato.

Unfortunately, we weren’t living in the same building and we didn’t have any of the same classes so I went over a month without seeing you. I had pushed you to the back of my head and almost even forgotten about you. It’s a shame that I didn’t, it’s a shame that I almost did. You resurfaced in my life in December. It was not only you who had surfaced, but new feelings did as well. The last night before Christmas break you looked into my eyes and told me that you were a better person when you were with me. Was that only drunken flattery or are you too afraid to admit that it might be true?

We talked briefly once over break. It was friendly, light conversation and I was filled with excitement at this blossoming friendship and the adventures it would bring when we were back at school. I thought you felt the same.

Before I continue I must elaborate. This isn’t a normal crush. This is an “I’m suddenly back in the fourth grade and I can’t help but tell everyone about you” crush. But what I didn’t tell others was that even though we were still practically strangers I could see a future with you. I imagined you meeting my whole family and how they would say they’ve never met a nicer young man. I saw us showing each other our hometowns and sharing our childhood dreams. I could actually see myself marrying you and how great of a husband and a father you would be. I had gotten too attached too fast. I drowned in those deep brown eyes of yours. How could I have misread the signs that much? How could I have let myself get that swept up in it all? How could you run away from me the second you picked up on the fact that I now looked at you a little differently? Do you even have the slightest clue? I know that you aren’t a ladies man. You haven’t dated anyone your entire college career. And I’m the same way. But maybe it’s time you opened yourself up to the possibility. I finally opened up for you.

I took a chance. I put myself out there for you time and time again. And what did you do? You repeatedly left me hanging. You filled me up with promise and then let me down hard. I know I should give up on you already. But when I think I’m about to, you surprise me in the tiniest way and pull me right back in. And that part of my soul deep down inside that’s attached to you is just too stubborn to surrender.

I’m here. I’m waiting. I’ll keep trying.

Save yourself some trouble and give me a chance?



  1. aww..that is so touching! makes me want to give who ever wrote this a hug :)


  2. This is me. The line about being in 4th grade and wanting all my friends t know my crush type of love.
    I love him so much, he is so shy and quiet, he probably an 8 of 10. I'm a 5. How do I tell him I want more?

  3. Everything will be ok, that's all we can hope for.

  4. Aww... *hugs* Keep trying! Things will be okay. :D

  5. start by at least establishing a friendship with him so you have some type of ongoing relationship and see what comes from the time invested in that. This way you will feel calmer about the fact that you have constant contact from him.

  6. Oh heavens. This is my situation right now.

  7. you are in the EXACT same situation as me except this guy who is my best friend is getting with a girl this is one of my best friends. Im glad to know Im not crazy for hanging onto something I believe in.

  8. I'd be freaked out if I was him.

  9. THIS... sounds exactly like what I'm going through.

  10. I relate to this blog so much. Thank you for this post.

  11. Love the story, I can relate.



  12. it is tuf to know who actually loves u... just being frndly also got a lot of my frnds thinkng tht i love them!

  13. honestly this is such a shitty situation. the thing that works for me is to try forget about wanting them soo bad. just try keep conversations light. thing is its really hard when you have all these feelings for someone. its such a horrible situation and so many girls if not all girls, have gone through this.
    the way youve presented the situation it seems he likes you but not in that way. often people can just be very flirty and throw lots of compliments and it can be very easy to read those signs as a guy having a crush on you. but some guys are like that naturally and dont actually like you more than as a friend. i guess this is a situation to be learnt from as to what works and what doesnt in the future x


  14. I had a spell cast by someone called *Dr. Todd*, before I found you other spell casters were very nasty to me. I was worried that maybe they did something to make my situation worse. Dr.Todd, you broke and cleansed those bad spells and put things right with the binding love spell. I don’t know where I’d be without the spell casting services you render, ( OR

    Thank you so much.


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