Saturday, December 17, 2011

so i wonder

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I fell in love with the way he held me tight. I fell in love with the way he'd kiss the back of my hand as he held it. I fell in love with the way he whispered, "I love you" in my ear, the way his breath felt against my neck as we cuddled, the way his lips felt when we kissed, who he was. I fell deeply in love with, I dove deeply.

Months pass and the sweet words flow and everything is fine and as soothing as things where, we were like the titanic. We graced through the water, we didn't see the iceberg coming, we felt it hit. We sank, so quick. One minute we were in love the next he was doubting. From someone who claimed that I was perfection in their eyes, from someone who stated they never wanted me to leave, he left. He tossed me aside, feelings invested, heart claimed, he left. He said we needed a break, said he wasn't feeling what we had anymore. And for so long I blamed myself, so many tears have I spilled. So many bruises cover my heart.

So I wonder, when you walk down the road you took when you left, will you ever stop dead in your tracks and want to run back to me? Will sorrow fill you up and tip you over and have you trying to wipe away all the sadness that has filled you up? Will you miss me and my pure love, my golden heart? Will you come back and snuggle next to me, your spot is as empty as ever since you left. More importantly, in your heart - was that the best choice you made? To leave someone who loves you, because truth be told, I still yearn for you. And I don't know if my heart will remain in the same spot you dropped it at. Will you be afraid when someone else has picked it up?
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17 comments:

  1. This is me these are the words circulating in my head and beating in my heart.. I can't get over it - I can't understand how something so good can easily become so insignificant to the other person- how they can pass up our heart of gold.. I want to give up on love. And this is only the first one I've ever felt this strongly.. I don't know if I can do this again, and again.. And again. The one person I want to talk to about this is the one who caused it all.. It eats me up inside. I know this feeling too well.. But god we can't regret what we did because living and loving with your whole heart is never, ever wrong. So we fall harder- we dive deeper.. We live and love and someday someone will give it all back.. Someday, i hope. <3

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  2. I know exactly what you're going through. I've been there. Except this guy in my situation left me waiting and broke up after several months.
    But I'm doing fine now, after yesterday I realised that I might be better of without him. Don't get your hopes up high. Be realistic. Don't cherish the thought of him coming back, because in the end; he might not and he's probably not. And even if he does come back, the same thing can happen. While you're waiting for him, there's another guy somewhere waiting for you and he'll go through everything to be with you and will never question his love for you.

    Hope it helps (:
    I wish you the best of luck!

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  3. This is my biggest fear. I'm so affraid that this will happen to me and the guy that I am seeing, that I am constantly looking out for the "iceberg". If he left me, it would break me. Not because he is the love of my life, yet, but because that is what happened to my mother. My father just left her, and if he leaves me, then that means that no guy out there is any good. So, therefore it would break me.

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  4. all i questions i once asked myself. for some, you will get the answers. for others, they're impossible to answer yet the answers won't matter anymore. peace comes to us all, from within ourselves...sending you love and strength to heal!

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  5. Tears came to my eyes reading this, mine came back and left once again. The bad part is that I gave more love and was left with the worst pain ever. So now I wait for the love to leave and wait to meet the guy like someone said....that will do anything for me. Stay strong, Im trying too.

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  7. I´m trying too...just stay strong.

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  8. Keep calm... carry on...

    http://freeluckyeasy.blogspot.com/

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  9. We never know why some things turn out the way they do....

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  10. So when I saw for the first sight I knew it was just over to start something TREMENDOUS.

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  11. Im exactly where you are now. Its so fucckking hard to come over this pain. Why did he leave me, we had it so perfect. I still wondering, why?

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  12. Just remember one thing.. Things happen for a reason. People come in your life and leave to teach you things. Positive or negative, depends!
    Life goes on.. like your heart didn't stop beating though he left. There's a space for someone better n worthier. :)

    From India with Love,
    http://inthepourinrain.blogspot.com/

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  13. This is my current story. As anonymous said: "I can't understand how something so good can easily become so insignificant to the other person" -- I couldnt say it any better. We will heal, learn, grow & love again. It hurts, but it would hurt more to never find love.

    xx
    josie
    www.straightNOchase.com

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  14. I almost started crying when I read this. Not only because it is the sad truth but because this perfectly describes the situation I am in right now.And there isn't anyway to sugar coat it. You feel so alone and frankly, it hurts like hell. Good luck.

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  15. "My pure love, my golden heart." Yes.

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  16. I was and am glad to know I wasn't the only one who felt this way or was in this road and I thank you guys all. I didn't think I was alone but I did feel so alone. Thanks for reading my words.

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