Monday, October 3, 2011

worth the wait

worth the wait love photo love image psiu_teamo, http://www.flickr.com/photos/psiu_teamo/5352683851/in/photostream/
ph: Psiu_teamo

The moment I woke up I turned around and looked into your eyes. You were already awake. ”Stay with me” I whispered with my almost non existing morning voice. ”I want to” you said. ”but i cant”. You kissed my dry lips and put your hand over my face. We looked into each others eyes, and with only an hour til you were leaving I knew there was nothing I nor you could do about it. But i still whispered ”please?”. We made love and got dressed. Took pictures of ourselves standing in front of the window. The morning light was painting the room with a beautiful colour. You packed your bags while I showered. then I got dressed while you showered. We were both kinda quiet. Once in a while we would laugh about something, hug each other for a few seconds while I repeated the same words, or just look at each other. But most of the time we were busy waking up. None of us are morning people.

Outside it was snowing. You carried your heavy suitcase up the hill and i took the lighter one. We got on the bus and got off at the station where the other bus was gonna pick you up. I leaned against your shoulder and a couple of tears rolled down my cheek. You touched my face and said ”don't cry”. I tried to say goodbye maybe 5 times, pulling myself away from you. But every time I came back, held you close and said the same words over and over again. ”I don't want you to leave. please stay”.

This could be a sad story but its not.

I found real love.

The real real love. Not the kind that will make you cry at night, or ask yourself why he said that, or kissed that other girl, or why he isn't sure about us. The real L-O-V-E. The person I know will love me for the rest of my life. I know it sounds crazy. I thought I found that in those other boys when I met them to. But I was wrong. And this feeling is so different. It's trust. I am calm. For the first time in years.

I went to work. I turned around a couple of times, and you waved at me. At work I kept busy and I laughed. Then I came home and your smell hit me like a wall when I entered my apartment. There were flowers on the kitchen table, a few things in the bathroom that you forgot. The sheets were messy. But the apartment felt so empty. I wish I could wake up tomorrow morning, turn around and whisper "Please stay". My small bed suddenly feels so big. But I know one day I will be able to turn around every morning and you will be there, and you will stay. And even though I miss you every second and every minute, for that, it is worth the wait.

22 comments:

  1. i know EXACTLY how you feel. im in the same exact situation and it is completely worth the wait.

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  2. Beautiful. I have spent the past few days thinking I would be in your situation. But he told me today that he is staying. :)

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  3. So beautiful :') I'm totally addicted in your blog... It always makes me feel something, and believe me.. that's rare.

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  4. Me too. He's coming back in 2 months. Saying goodbye was the hardest thing in the world but every painful second away from him is so worth it.

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  5. I love these kinds of posts where it's not just about lost or newly found love, it's about what happens afterwards or in between. It's something I love and miss and something I wish I had.

    A tiny bit of love.

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  6. I wrote this one.

    Thank you for all your comments. This is about a distance relationship. I wrote this 6 months ago and today we are engaged about to be married. When I write this I havent seen him in 2 months, but next week he is gonna be here. And next summer Im gonna be his wife.

    Never give up on love. Never let distance be a reason to give up. Its worth it. Real love is always worth it.

    H

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  7. Felt like you were writing about my life.

    I hope my happy ending will be as happy as yours Hanna.

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  8. It feelt so good to read this, since this what i am feeling right now....i found my real LOVE in Africa while working there this summer, he was there for 3 days and we fell hard for each other...i went and spent 10 days with him in his home country where he lives and now im moving to his country both to be with him but i found a masters program there thats perfect for me:) so im hoping i get in...will find out in the nest few days...i know its mad to move to be with someone that you have only known for such a short time...but to us this feels right!! So reading this made me feel even more sure about what we are doing....and knowing that giving our REAL LOVE a REAL try....:)

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  9. artemis, im so glad i could inspire you to feel more sure about decition! i hope everything will work out for the best.

    anonymous.. i hope your ending will be happy to. believe me ive been through hell before i found the love of my life, but looking back at what I learned it was worth it all. love is not easy - especially on a distance, but ALWAYS worth getting up and try over and over again. never give up!

    hanna

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  10. I... don't know what to say. It's like you've captured EXACTLY how I feel! Went right through my heart, almost started crying!

    LDR is killing me, but it is like you said, worth the wait.

    I love knowing that LDRs can end as good as yours! Thanks for sharing this beautiful story!

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  11. Please read/enjoy:

    http://freeluckyeasy.blogspot.com/

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  12. My man is in Florence right now. Waiting is something my boyfriend and I know too well. I just skyped with him today, and it's like I fall in love all over again with his pixalated face. He is my best friend, my other half. He is always worth the wait.

    You're story made me so happy. So happy to know that many more have found their real love out there. Congrats on the engagement! :) I wish you all the best!

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  13. I was in the same situation for one and a half year. Now he has moved to my country and is staying for eight months maybe longer, hopefully longer. I have tears in my eyes because I know the exact feeling of saying good bye.

    Don't give up on that love though! Its totally worth it when you're finally together.

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  14. This was beautiful. Thank you for sharing. It's good to know that there are some of us who are privileged enough to experience that kind of magic. I hope that will be me one day.

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  15. Hanna, im very happy for you... sincerely when i read all of this stories i suffer,smile and sometimes a tear escapes from my eye... I wish you a very happy life :)

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  16. Really worthwhile data, much thanks for the post.

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  17. Beautiful. He'll be here in a few days. I can't wait to be in his arms, if only for the weekend.

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  18. So beautiful. I lived the same thing. But I keep having faith ♥

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