Thursday, June 9, 2011

you should have said no.


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You should have said no and this whole thing would have been avoided. But you didn't. You never even fathomed that I was in your mind. In the back of your very head. You let her bat her eyes, touch your arm, tease you til you couldn't take it anymore. But most of all, you betrayed me. All I want to know is, "why?" What did she have that I couldn't have offered you? Why did she flood back into your memories? Why did you cave into her little game? You should have said no. You should have shoved her away. Told her to leave. SOMETHING! But instead, you caved. Gave in to her every whim. Her every desire. Once she was satisfied, it was too late. You betrayed me. You lied to me. You straight up forgot I even existed in your life.

Was it worth it? Was it worth this? Was it worth losing me? Losing everything you once held so closely to? I feel really cheated, in fact, I was cheated. I never expected this. Especially from you. You were the last person I ever expected to hurt me this badly. So badly, I didn't want to get up out of bed. I just wanted to lie there all day. Forget the world. Forget you. But, I knew I couldn't. I had to get up. Dress up. Put on my face. Fake that smile. Get through my day. Without you... But, I don't think you would have made it any better. You sure did enough. I just don't understand it. I don't understand you. All I know is now, I can't even look at you. You Should have said No.

You lost me.

-C

24 comments:

  1. Tragic.
    I fear one day this might happen between me and my boyfriend, since I always feel like I don't offer enough. Or that I'm not good enough.

    Beautiful lies.

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  2. Beautiful written, I know how it feels. Can't say it gets better though, but you will learn how to live with the pain. I have.

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  4. sometimes we hold on to what is old because we are just afraid of loneliness.
    sometimes our heart leaps for another, but we stick to the old.

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  5. Do not worry, you will find someone better, Just for you... Keep up and do not lose hope...

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  6. exactly same thing happened to me. fucking wanker. 9months on and i'm still not over it. i know the song you're relating to.. i can relate to many of taylor swift's songs to the point I can't listen to the sad ones without crying. fuck boys. honestly, they do some wanky things and leave us with all the 'why's'.

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  7. Thats exactly what I felt 6 months ago.. it hurts, but the betrayed feeling will eventually vanish. Sometimes when I'm home alone, these hurting questions creep up back to my head and I just cry, because losing me wasn't worth that one night with another girl. No we're separated, but still sometimes talk. He's still strongly in love with me but all I do is push him away and away...

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  8. it happened to me 6months ago. i wonder if we ever get through this..one day maybe, we just have to wait.
    i know all these questions, doubts, tears and fears. we have to be helped, to get up, and believe in love again. Cause i tried for a few months, and i failed. i gave up, gave him up. until now, im still looking for a miracle solution to forgive and forget. we're now separated, cant stop thinking about him and imagine and playback the scene of the night he spent with her.
    She took my place, this night. From this very first day, he lose me..everything we build felt appart, just because of her. Of his desire, curiousity.
    I blame him for that, destroying us over sex.
    Despite this betrayal, why do i keep loving him?
    please Time help me to pass this long lasting nightmare faster.

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  9. I refuse to believe this is you C, after everything we have shared and when you know I am crazy in love with you, that I left my partner 6 months ago to be with you. It is you who never left him. Please I cannot believe you say this when you know how in love with you I am and how upset it has made me that you have asked me to set you free

    Mark

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  10. I got left 4 months pregnant when he cheated on me :/ it may seem like the worse thing in the world right now but you'll get through it.....i did and i had so much more to worry about. He doesnt deserve you and i hope the decision he made haunts him for the rest of his life...

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  11. I know you might think i'm the stupiest person in the world, but maybe they really loved each other. In my life, i had a similar story, only with another ending. There was a boy from another country. we fell in love, though he had a girlfriend. he loved me more, still he didn't say yes to me, only because i lived in another country. he sticked around his girlfriend. I understand that maybe we would have never worked, but i don't think that he should be with his girlfriend, when he knows that he can love somebody more. that's just being in a relationship, just to have one.

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  12. that reminds me Taylor Swift's song "You should have said no"

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  13. Yes, he should've had said no. And some day you will find a guy who knows what respect is and will not even notice other girls exist because he has you.

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  14. Been there and it sucks...I truly understand how it feels...You trust someone, you love him, you give your heart,your mind, your soul...And that is what you get back...
    I asked myself a million times "why?"...But sometimes it's not you or me...You can't identify what is in someone's mind...even if he's so close to you...It may meant nothing to him...It may had...Time will only tell you what it meant...If your love for him was true and if his love for you is still there...I don't say forgive him...You have every right to feel betrayed...But i believe that people can regret and understand when they've done the biggest stupid thing in their life...
    I didn't forget...You never can...But i forgave...I gave my life a second wonderful chance and that makes me smile...
    Hope one day soon you will smile with a true happiness inside you...

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  15. I have found a lot meaningful posts here. Thanks for your efforts. I shared this blog with my friends they also appreciate this too much.

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  16. yes you will move on and live your everyday life but you won't necessarily get over it, it might not bother you as much as it used to but it'll always hurt because you'll always ask yourself if they supposeably cared so much then why did they do that to you, guys think with their dicks when it comes to situations like this, sadly.

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  17. I'd like to say that as a guy I have also gine through something very similar so it's not just guys thinking with their dicks. Women are capable of causing a great deal of damage as I have recently found out when after breaking up with the person I was with at the time to be with this person I am told I love you but cannot be with you so I will continue to be with my boy friend. So much for honesty and love..... Wish some moments of our life could just be erased. Instead I fear I'll bear these scars in my heart for years to come.... Love truly sucks

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  18. Don't worry....you're not the only one! I am writing a blog just to let the world know how it is.....dey r nt alone...everyone goes through HELL..!!

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  19. After pretending it didn't happen nor was it the first time, it's obvious i cannot hide it anymore. I could have seriously written this myself. Thank you for speaking your mind out.

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  20. You didn't deserve this. No one deserves this. That man is nothing, and you deserve so much better. I can only imagine the pain you feel, and although you want to close yourself off now, don't close yourself off forever. Because if you leave your heart open, you are sure to find someone who truly appreciates you and will be loyal and love you wholeheartedly. It is worth the risk to open yourself up again to experience love again. Once you do, you'll fully get over this, and your heart will fully heal. I wish you all the best.

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  21. Story of betrayal and lies, unfortunately all so familiar to so many of us....

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  22. taylor swift lyrics as a textual reference...?

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