Tuesday, January 18, 2011

good bye forever


I don’t understand why every time I see a picture of you, my heart stops and you take my breath away. Each time. I’m not supposed to feel this way about you anymore, I’m not. It’s been two years since you left me but it seems you still have a part of my heart. I don’t know if you even think about me every once in a while or feel something whenever you see my face. Part of me hopes you do, which is bad. I still have hope and I have been unaware of that or simply been trying hard to avoid that fact.

We met in the year of 2008. The first time I saw him I knew he was going to be my first love. We’d talk every day and spend hours behind the computer. I wanted to know every thing about him. I wanted him to know every thing about me. I wanted him, all to myself. Whenever he would call, my heart would scream of joy and suddenly all my troubles went away.

Our love was beautiful and lasted for about three months. But it only took a couple of weeks for me to fall head over heels in love. I fell so hard but he wasn’t there to catch me. That’s all I wanted, to be caught and he failed to do just that. My heart got destroyed. I couldn’t eat or sleep. Just the thought of him made me burst into tears. I swear I’ve cried a river.

I had a hard time with accepting the break up. Part of me could not believe that he could just leave me there to bleed with my broken heart. I’d spend hours and hours thinking on what I possibly did wrong, or maybe it was something I said. It took months for me to come to my senses. But it happened. I told myself I am not going to spend any more time crying or feeling depressed over this guy because it is a waste of time!

And so the naïve girl died.

I know I deserve so much better, and you’ve told me before. But now I finally believe it. I hope true love finds you, and that you’ll be able to put down your walls one day to finally experience how it feels like to truly love someone. Then maybe you will know how I’ve loved you. I’m writing this because I want this off my chest for good and to permanently forget about the thought of us ever getting back together.

So this is my heart telling you good bye forever.



  1. beautiful... i know how you feel. i live every day waiting for him to call or text but i know i have to move on and except that its the end but as soon as i do and i finally let him go he walks right back into my life and to be honest im sick of it

  2. beautiful.. i wish i could do that but its so hard

  3. ♥ stay strong and true to yourself!

  4. Hi . One more nice post from this blog. I know you have cried a river thinking about him and now you are moving on. It feels very sad to tell your self that ITS OVER. You feel like the part of you is missing. But be brave you will soon find a nice guy who loves you and who stays with you forever just dont loose hope. . . . Pls visit my blog and be my follower pls..... www.defectiveseven.blogspot.com

  5. This made me cry. Its nice to read a post from someone who is also still trying to get over their love from 2 years ago. I still love mine and for the life of me cannot seem to let him go.

  6. two years since he left? i think it's time to forget him :) kisses!

  7. Hi. It's funny how I feel the same. I cry every time I read you posts. It's been 2 years since our break up and I wrote him a goodbye letter this monday :(

    I told him that I'm still in love. I can feel him everywhere. I want him the most but I can't have :(

    Better stop now or my job colleagues are going to see me cry. And I've already cried the whole night.

    If you learn to be strong, please help me :)

    Many kisses.
    Rio de Janeiro, Brazil

  8. it's like I wrote it myself ... scary. :(

  9. so beautiful..wow, without words, I could understand everything you say...

  10. exactly around the same time i met him, and it was around 3 mths we were tog too.& he left me hanging there for months (what seemed like years).3 years later I realised ive wasted enough of my youth. and i moved on.
    your story made me feel like i wrote it myself!

  11. Correct me if I'm wrong, but I find it very comforting knowing that there are other people in the world who go through what I go through.. Thank you for this post.. Truly.. I've spent 8 months now trying to get over a guy.. One guy.. Just yesterday I convince myself I'm over him completely.. But tell me.. why am I sitting here on a computer screen ready to cry my eyes out..? I hope you find love :) I hope you stay brave and true to yourself. You're stronger than that naiive girl. You are. <3

  12. I spent two years (and multiple replacement attempts) 'getting over' a love. We began talking again a few months ago and even went on a proper date. Sometimes, you don't have to say good bye forever

  13. Love is shite. Forget him and try to let that never happen to you again. Good luck.

  14. i know how you feel... and i know its so difficult to move on... im trying to move on, and im convinced that if didnt work it was because God have other boy that would be better for me and will treat me like a princess...

  15. I really appreciate your post and you explain each and every point very well.Thanks for sharing this information.And I’ll love to read your next post too.

  16. I said good bye just once but still wonder if she thinks about me once a while, but I guess i will never know...

  17. Really useful information, thanks so much for the article.

  18. I feel the same way its so hard to move on and I'm always wondering if he would realize what he was missing..

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  21. <3 beautiful
    i'll never forget him


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