Sunday, January 30, 2011

because it is so much easier to run


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I'm scared! I'm so fucking scared! I think that I'm maybe love him, I really do! But I can’t, not him! I know that something is wrong, why is he so nice and perfect all the time! WHYY??!! And he is choosing me?! Come on man, there are so many girls out there, take THEM!! Not me…!!

This is making me so scared, because I know it can’t be true! I just know it! About two weeks from now he is coming to visit me (we live in two different cities), and I really really want him to come, but at the same time I really don’t. I know that I am going to say that I am sick so he can absolutely not come!! I know that I am going to do that! Do you want the reason? I always do that, when I like someone I run!! Because running is so much easier that stay! Now I think I decided not to run, but I don’t now if I can do that because I am scared as hell!! I scared that he is like all the others guys… okay, it’s not like I had 20 boyfriends… actually it’s more like one… or can I say .5…?

I just don’t know what to do! I am so confused! I want to love him but I can’t because everything I see is perfection, and no one is perfect! I know that! I have all these feelings inside of me, and I can’t tell him.. I just can’t!! Sometimes when we talk, I just want him to know everything! I mean, we have been friends for 1,5 years now, and I wrote in a text (when I was out with my friends—to drunk for my own best..xD ) that I think I like him more than a friend.. the next day I got a text back… I felt the same way!! Still, I am here in my room, can’t study to a big finale because I am thinking of all this while I receive so cute and wonderful texts from him all the time…! My friends are telling me to chill out! Wait until he comes! But that is the problem!! I know I am going to fix so he’s not coming!

I hate to run! But I hate to stay too! For now, I hate to be in love…! I just hate it so much! And the worst part is that I don’t think I am going to change my mind! Because it is so much easier to run! And do you know what? I love to run! Run is my love! Forever!!!

37 comments:

  1. You're on crack. Run away with him.

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  2. I waiting a guy for 2 years After no answear ......

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  3. Hey :)
    I need to let you know something because I can't just continue reading this blog and not reply to something I relate so much to.. Anyway.. I must ask you.. What's life without a little risk? Many people go their whole lives not feeling this way.. Not finding someone that cares for them.. Sweetie.. You'll never know until you try. I'm begging you.. A stranger somewhere in the world.. I'm begging you to take a chance on this guy. I beg of you. I wish the guy of my dreams had taken a chance on me.. He claimed that it's easier to walk away than to fight for what you really want.. But if you really believe that, then you think that this guy isn't worth it....? Take a chance.. If it doesn't work out? Life goes on. You're young. And you have your whole life ahead of you.. Give him a chance..

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  4. some people are risking A LOT to try and get back the person they love. my ex-fiance, like the person above, thought that it was easier to walk away than to fight after we had problems. i'm desperately trying to make him realise that the problems are not unsurmountable, and all the while trying to finish my final year and job-hunting.

    your guy, my dear, clearly likes you a LOT. don't be so selfish. it's scary at first but then it's just wonderful...don't let nerves get to you. good luck.

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  6. i can't stop smiling && feeling 'awwe' at the same time while reading.. because i can relate. i mean, i do things like that.. run & run & run.. and i dunnu why.

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  7. Girl you're stupid!!!I'm sorry but it's true. You are so lucky, i'd do anything to be with the person i love, and there is the person you love, loving you. Of course it's scary, and yes sometimes you will get hurt, but that's a part of love, and you can't just shut it out of your life. And please believe me, you are soo lucky, you have no idea how much i envy you.

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  8. OOOOOOK... I feel absolutely the same way about love. Thats why Im 17 and never had a boyfriend. Well, its not, that there werent opportunities, but still... Like you already said: Its easier to run.
    But girl, we should hold on for a moment, risk everything, have our fun, maybe also cry a lil bit (but dont tell me, that youve never cryed before - while you were running) and after that all and more: go on with running. No one will stop you, because then youre not running away - then youre just moving on and on to the next one. So JUST DO IT.
    - love, S. from Berlin, Germany <3

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  9. He who risk, wins most of the time, but the lost chances... are these more important. Lifes a battle and just because you loose, it doesn't mean you have lost the war.

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  10. I never and try and go back over old ground as it hurts too much. Make a fresh start each time and learn from the previous mistakes.

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  11. don't run !!! live your life day after day, don't ruin the chance to live a perfect relationship


    xx, yamina.
    http://beyondurclothes.blogspot.com/

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  12. You must take and enjoy all and each moment of your life, we only live once, so why be scared? Take a chance girl and enjoy, don't ever think what is going to happen in the future, you MUST think about it NOW, live now, with no regrets! Give him, and more important, give YOU this chance :D I wish you all the luck in the world!

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  13. Kid, as what almost everyone has said above, you're lucky. I, on the other hand is the complete opposite. I'm risking everything for the woman that I love. I'll be flying to another continent for her. You have to give it a shot coz you'll never know until you try. For sure it'll hurt, but it's when you know you really care. It could hurt the deepest and it could be the most beautiful thing. Best of luck!

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  14. This, your story, is me. I've talked to the same guy for one and a half years, I've told him "I'm sorry but I'm busy" or "Im'm sorry but I'm sick" an uncountable number of times.

    This weekend I decided I have to give him a chance, so I said yes. I'm now going to hang out with him on thursday, and you know what? I'm not going to be sick.

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  15. im always running like you... but im always regretting either, you have to take this risk girl, or youll be wondering "WHAT IF?"

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  16. Yeah. I feel like that too. It's scary- but it's gonna be okay! Sometimes, you just have to jump.

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  17. You can run, but you can't hide!

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  18. I know exactly how your feeling. I've only had one boyfriend and after three years A wonderful guy popped up after Thanksgiving that has been nothing but wonderful. Things are so natural and lovely, I can't get enough of it. I would suggest you stay and take the risk with this special guy. Why run from something that has been great and perfect so far.

    Proceed with caution but enjoy the unknown future :)

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  19. Want to hear a secret? The rest of us feel this way too. Love is the privilege of the brave.

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  20. You must go for it. If you don't take chance like this, you'll always wonder what could have been. Isn't it worth the risk to love and it maybe work out, than to never try to love?

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  21. It's easier to leave than to be left behind. But who wants the easy way out??

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  22. dont run because you will run your life away and live with regrets.

    Some times you cant always think the grass will be greener elsewhere when all you need to do is take what you have now... im marrying my bestfriend, you know why because i love him and he loves me... whats the point of running away - i dont get it!

    Guys will only chase you if they think its worth it and if hes coming to see you he thinks your worth it too. Now all you have to relise is that you deserve happiness and love, its the best feeling on this earth :)

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  23. I feel like I wrote this...

    I know that nothing we say can change your mind (once a runner always a runner-like me)

    but I will try...every time I run from a guy I find myself asking "why the hell did I do that?" and vowing to never run again...tough cycle.

    But you see I made a pact with myself. I will stay with a guy until he gives me a real concrete reason to leave him. (not something dumb I make up so I can run away again)..this will give us time to really spend time together and once that happens you can gauge how much you enjoy his company and eventually you will stop being so scared.

    Just remember: Everyone has 20/20 hindsight\


    aka I learned this the hard way

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  24. Once I heard a phrase about love that really got me...

    "Do you know why people search love?. Because is the closest thing we have to magic..."

    This guy you wrote about is seriously commited on having a relationship with you, and he cares about you, ando you do too!

    Don't let your fear make you miss the magic love is, because loving my dear, is one of the most amazing feelings in the world.

    Xoxo

    G. (from Argentina)

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  25. I can't belive this got published! And do you know what? He boked his tickets yesterday, he is really coming..!
    Ten minutes ago I was on my way to call him and and say that we had to talk (i was going to stat running...) Guys,I had my phone in my hand!!!! And I thought I would check Le Love and other blogs first and then call! Then i saw this!
    Now when i read the comments I discover that you all have a point! And I appreciate it all!! They helped me, now at least I will give it a chance. And I will not run! Or, I will try not to! But like skyla said, once a runner, always a runner...But this time i will do my best not to!! Now I think i can do it!!

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  26. oh god, i know how you feel.

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  27. ha this is me. I fall for the guy but for the life of me i always seem to run. I have a friend who lives in SD and I live in LA we like eachother but when it came to hanging out i ran. I told him i got sick and couldnt make the drive. I know love is this great thing but there is a fear of everything that could go wrong and like you he seems overly perfect. I am the most fkawed of flawed people and it scares me. i totally relate and i hope that unlike me you can be courages and meet with him and juist hang out.

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  28. I love to run too... But I think that sometimes you have to take the risk and just go for it. It will always be easier to run, but you don't want to do that forever...
    . I think you should try it. You seem like such a great person, no wonder he likes you!

    Give him a chance.

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  29. Just let yourself go, what do you have to lose? HIM? Okay, if he's not meant to be, he just isn't.... or maybe he is and you will have the BEST time of your life. Give it a shot!

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  30. Ok I'll be honest, im a runner too, and I know it sounds really stupid to other people, but you know what? When you find a guy that's worth slowing down for, you will! You won't have to debate it. Harsh truth is, if your really into someone you'll do what it takes to be with them. I've dated a lot of guys and only ever gotten serious with one of them, and I don't regret that. I'm going to keeping having fun until the next worthwhile guy comes along. And you will be okay as long as you don't completely close yourself off to anything! You have to recognize when it's real, and when the guys only as good as the next one. Which one is your guy?

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  31. girl guys like him are rare, they really are so love him and take a chance at his loving you back, in this life alot of shit happens to us but love is one of the good things. Don't run hney because if you do, you'll never stop and you'll never find that love.

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  32. Really effective data, thank you for the article.

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  33. "I hate to run! But I hate to stay too! For now, I hate to be in love…! I just hate it so much! And the worst part is that I don’t think I am going to change my mind! Because it is so much easier to run! And do you know what? I love to run! Run is my love! Forever!!!"
    Same here, I hope you will get over this soon, I need to get over to, thanks nice post.

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  34. This won't really have success, I believe this way.

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