Friday, October 1, 2010

prisoner of the moment


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“This is a story of boy meets girl. But you should know upfront, this is not a love story.” - 500 Days of Summer

It’s true. My story is not a love story. But this represents what I yearn more than ever to be, “a prisoner of the moment.”

I met boy less than two months ago. And it only took me one to fall in love with him. He was handsome, adventurous, intelligent, and could throw sarcastic remarks back as quickly as I could dish them. I wanted to spend all of my time with him. Just thinking about him made my face burst into a smile. He was exciting, and I couldn’t get enough.

But after only three weeks, it ended. He was still in love with his ex-girlfriend, and I would forever not be her. It burned at first. I cried. A lot. I thought about all the things we had done together and all the future plans that would never be.

But as quickly as I had fallen for him, I had bounced back. Three weeks of love meant our relationship was only a glitch in time. But it fit perfectly. I wish to be someone that goes whole-heartedly for what I want, disregarding the consequences. And in this situation, this is exactly what I had done. I had many warnings from friends, telling me I was setting myself up to get hurt. Which I did. But, without that risk, I never would have been able to feel that fire. Three weeks of pure happiness was worth the sadness.

Being a “prisoner of the moment” means that I lead with my wants, and not my rationalities. I go based off instinct, not thinking too far into the future. With boy, I dove in completely and tried to suppress all other thought, the scream telling me to protect myself and back out. I was hurt in the end, but life is too short to care. I can only hope I find this passion again, and that it doesn’t burn out quite so quickly.

-untilikickthebucket

44 comments:

  1. You have no idea how much I needed this text right now. I've found so far a perfect guy and I'm so freakin' scared, so happy it's scary. But I guess it's alright. I really need to see him tonight and give him a kiss.

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  2. I LOVE this. I wish I could be a prisoner of the moment.

    xo

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  3. I can say I have felt almost exactly the same and I am beyond happy that I am not alone. Happy that I am not crazy. Happy that I have something to look forward to. Happy to know that following your heart is what life is all about.

    xx

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  4. You're a courageous girl because you did exactly what most people can't and won't do.

    http://lovers-shore.blogspot.com

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  5. life's all about taking chances. i took a shot for love and i got burned, too. i went cold because of hard words, something died inside of me. i had no hopes left for such a long time. but now i know that life has so much more to give. you are right. after all i had the best time of my life. i loved with passion and I fought for love. thank you for writing this text, it braught hope into a dead heart.

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  6. Beautifully written and very familiar to me... xxx
    http://www.hushforfashion.blogspot.com/

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  7. lovely. just perfect. this text is just amazing.

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  8. Prisoner of the Moment... This is so my story about 2 month ago. I am keep telling myself that the happiness was worth the pain. And i think it definitly was!

    And there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears.
    And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears.
    Get over your hill and see what you find there,
    With grace in your heart and flowers in your hair. - Mumford & Sons :)

    Wish you the best

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  9. Wow this story really exactly the same thing, which happened to me... only that i'm a boy and she got back to her ex-boyfriend...
    She always said that she felt, that i was better for her and that we were made for each other, we had so many things in common, like we were completely the same... but she's still together with him and tries to forget me.

    Good to know that you're not the only one who experienced and felt something like that.

    Lots of love and i hope we all find the right one ;)

    - the only guy who's reading this blog ? ;D

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  10. I'm the prisoner of the moment. I met a guy - just like that. Have known him for 6 months now - not together anymore. He went to school far away from me - which was the end of it (the best 6 months for my love life).

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  11. You should be sooooo happy.
    I wish I could stop caring that quickly

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  12. you have placed some peace in many heartbroken souls. thank you.

    i'm sure you'll find that passion once again.

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  13. This is so beautiful. I do not comment very often, but I always read your stories. Sometimes, they make me cry and sometimes they make me smile. Your blog is wonderful.

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  14. same as my situation except he turns out to not want commitment.he was beautiful, and ur right.. it is worth it..thanks so much for this..i want to keep holding on

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  15. this is one amazing story by one amazing person!!!!!

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  16. I think you are right. And not have afraid of fall in love or break your heart is the essencial condition to really know what is the best for you. I wish I could seize every opportunity that I know nice girls to know them a little more

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  17. but life is too short to care...

    awsome writting!

    www.sunshinydaymiss-jean.blogspot.com :)

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  18. Hi, my name is Marina and i'm from Brazil (or BraSil, like we write). When I read your story i had the very strong impression that you talked with me first and then whote about what i lived. I lived the exact same situacion that you and it's reconforting to know that i'm not the only people in the world that passed through this.
    Thank you.

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  19. Hi, my name is Marina and i'm from Brazil (or BraSil, like we write). When I read your story i had the very strong impression that you talked with me first and then whote about what i lived. I lived the exact same situacion that you and it's reconforting to know that i'm not the only people in the world that passed through this.
    Thank you.

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  20. Thanks everyone so very much for reading/commenting on my entry. It was a very therapeutic process, and it makes me beyond happy to know that you enjoyed it!


    untilikickthebucket.blogspot.com

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  21. don't worry... love always wins; it's the only rational act. ♥

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  22. You misspelled "lust" with "love"...........just saying.

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  23. Ditto! We all love, irrespective of the consequences. It's only when rationality kicks in that we fear.

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  24. Gorgeous. Courageous! So liberating to read.

    http://psychicesmeralda.com

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  25. I wish I had your courage to be happy in the moment; now it's time I will never have back. I hope for another shot at it, although right now it feels like it may never come.

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  26. this def inspired me. i want to be a prisoner of the moment

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  27. it was so nice to read this because this was my story last year.just the mention of his name and i would smileof laugh by my self remembering somthing he had told me earlier. Except for i though i was over him until a month ago he came backinto my life and im back in that fiery felling of fun and passion. I wish you all the luck in the world with finding these feelings again with someone else or maybe with him :)

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  28. so inspiring...thanks for sharing xo

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  29. I'm a prisoner of the moments - the happy moments I share with a person, while the rest is melancholy and some frustration.

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  30. Lovely writing and story. I can relate with every word.
    I love the term; prisoner of the moment. beautiful!

    Love Mia

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  31. The very, exact, total, amazingly same thing happened to me. I am..gobsmacked. But delighted. Cause finally I can stop thinking that just cause it was short means it doesn't matter. It does matter, it did matter, and to me, it will always matter. I love you Liam. <3

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  32. im a prisoner of the moment too...

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  33. This is perfect. Prisoner of the moment.. I hope you continue in this state of mind :)

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  34. You are really brave and strong. I hope you will find that passionate relationship again. Three weeks are more than what I had with my first love. I somehow admire you.. xo

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  35. This is my story as well. I met this wonderful boy in July and we spent 3 weeks together, but he is overseas and very far away from me and we may never see one another again. I don't regret the things we did. It only hurts knowing that the passion died much earlier for him than it did myself after we were separated. I have not yet fully bounced back, but I am getting there. Living in the moment can be beautiful, but I also hope to find someone someday who wants to invest in a future with me.

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  36. Thanks again everyone for reading/commenting! I put an update about me and boy, the story of "boy meets girl," on my blog if you'd like to take a look :)

    untilikickthebucket.blogspot.com

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  37. This sounds all so familiar to me, its like you took a page out of my life. Thank you for sharing this, this is exactly what i needed

    xx

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  38. I feel if the ending is that beautiful it gonna just turn to another boring movie. but i like this story

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  39. i love your blog and your words i like the movie as well

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  40. whoa, okay, this is like... my life. i told myself not to like this guy because he dates girls for a short while and i knew that. but i did anyways and it only lasted a week, but it was so perfect that its hard to let go of. i know ill bounce back but its still annoying as he said we would start dating soon and after everything that happened....

    oh, and it was because of his ex too.

    glitch in time.

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  41. Is this some event that everyone gotta experienced once in their life so that they will grow up? I've been in a similar situation and I am glad I am stronger now because of all that. Life is really too short to care about all that.

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  42. yeah, I had that fire too with one guy, but I was too afraid to do anything so I just was, I did nothing I let hom to all alone and when I was ready to put myself out there it was too late, he didn`t want me anymore, I have never been so sad in my life and I do not know how to get over....

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