Wednesday, September 29, 2010

my feelings won't change



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The message i sent to my lover when he ended things telling me he all of a sudden had no time for or relationship...

There's so much left unsaid that It's got to a point where I'm a mess. I can't keep trying.

I won't lie; I still hope you'll call & probably won't move on properly till you do.
I'm confused that you were just going to leave it though you know what I'm feeling.
Being openly emotional isn't something I do so you know I'm really trying.

We've both had unsuccessful relationships & it kills that you won't give us a chance.
I just wanted to be there for you. No drama, just me & you.
Despite what you have going on I'd support you not stress you. You say your life has a schedule,
I could've worked with that; all I wanted was your time, however much or little.
I need you to know that I would've been different. No lies, control, cheating or games.

Think of the time we spent together. You know we'd have been good for each other.
You made me feel things I'd never felt before then took it away as if it was nothing.
As if I was nothing. No explanation. Imagine how that feels.

I don't know if it's because of what happened or because you truly don't want someone right
now but you will soon enough, we all do, & I'm here. Still wanting you just the way we were.
If you felt everything you said you did you could balance it. But I can't force that.
You have your reasons. I just wish you didn't.

You mean so much to me & you can't tell giving up on us makes you happy.
I meant it when I said I loved you.
We had something. Maybe it's over. Maybe you need time.
Either way my feelings won't change.

-anon

41 comments:

  1. "No drama, just me & you."
    ..

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  2. I'm sorry for you...and I can relate to that. But guys can actually use any excuse to leave you and the real reason is always the same...

    One day, you'll find someone who thinks that you're worth his time :)

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  3. I am a mad believer in love, it's what makes life worthwhile.

    However, I do not understand why you would want to be with someone who doesn't want to be with you ?

    No matter how much you are willing to do for someone, how much you would sacrifice for them, if they aren't willing to do the same for you, or even appreciate the lengths you would go for them, let alone the little things you do, then they are certainly not worth your time.

    I have let go of many relationships that were "reasonable" enough, but needed alot of "working on".

    Until I found the love of my life, I finally understand that love isn't always as hard as it seems.

    If it's right, if it's perfect, it just fits.
    You mould to eachother, otherwise one bends, and the other breaks.

    I know you find someone who will treat you with the upmost respect as you deserve, don't ever settle for second best !

    xo

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  4. Darling, a brutal betrayal -- so cowardly. You just know there's a truth that is missing from his story, and it would have been kinder to tell it.
    Esmeralda wishes you the calm which will follow the storm of your grief.

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  5. i'm sorry.
    i wish i didn't understand where you're coming from quite so much.

    good luck. i think it gets better with time. that's what i'm hoping.

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  6. He's a coward. It will get better with time and one day you will meet the most amazing guy that will want to be with you. Don't be too sad. You'll see why.

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  7. He's not the one. So, just forget him and someday you'll find real love.

    http://lovers-shore.blogspot.com/

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  8. wow, this has happened to me also.

    There's so much left unsaid that It's got to a point where I'm a mess.

    Almost a year has gone. Still loving him. Wondering if this will ever pass?

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  9. I know how this feels. He left me, out of the blue. No warning, no explanation. One day we were fine, the next day he never came back and ignored my calls. Then one day I hear from him and in the middle of a phone conversation, mid sentence, he just hung up. It still hurts, two years on to be treated like I meant so little after almost a decade together. Some closure would've been nice.

    I pined for him, begged him, cried, went through life not really living, not wanting anything or anyone but him. And although it still hurts, I don't want him any more. Why would I want someone that would discard me so easily, like a piece of trash?

    You'll realise in time that he's not the one for you, not the one you want for the rest of your life. Because the one you want would never break your heart so carelessly.

    Be strong.

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  10. you have awful punctuations.

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  11. im exactly in the same situation. he's so determined in everything in his life: work, studies, family, pets. everything but me. im the last of all his priorities. he jus left without explanations, im left with questions unanswered

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  12. your ex was being kind to you when he chose to end the relationship with the lame excuse he has no time for you. it is likely that he has other reasons for ending it. there is no need to know those other reasons- it will hurt you deeper.

    ALL THAT MATTERS is is that you've tried your hardest in this relationship. if he doesn't reciprocate, it's time to move on.. don't wait and pine for a guy that puts you on his last option and does not cherish what you do and sacrifice for him.

    you deserve better babe. you do.

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  13. I know exactly what you're going through because it happened to me a year ago. I'm still dealing with it, but just know that you're definitely not alone. Believe me it sucks when all you wanna do is just be there for them, and they just can't let you in. However, you do deserve someone that's willing to give as much back for you as well.

    It's taken me a long time to understand that concept, but it's the truth. Sometimes they let go because they know that you deserve someone better that can give you all the things you need that they can't. A terrible realization and something you don't wanna hear, but sometimes that's just how it is and we can't always get what we want. I also don't think he's happy that you guys are through, it takes a lot of guts to end a relationship especially if you believe you're doing what's best for the other person and for himself.

    You wouldn't be happy if he never considered you a priority. In the long run you would have resented him and it would just create more fights between you two. It's so crazy reading this because it's exactly what I'm feeling and I totally understand.

    time heals all wounds...

    <3

    -Alissa

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  14. this is exactly me right now, my stomach is in knots. i hope you're okay x

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  15. Excellent Blog! I really admire your thinking and the way you have put these information in this post. Thanks for sharing an informative post.

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  16. I think I had that couple of years back, no, I know I had it. But the thing is, really, I couldn't get over until I realized that he's not gonna change and I don't have to. And it's okay, that's just how it is, really. And now what I'm feeling? I guess I just found someone who I don't want to change and I know I don't have to change. Feels so damn good.

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  17. I wish I didn't feel like the person you're talking to so much.

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  18. i know the exact feeling, i was with my now ex for nerly a year, never felt anything close to what i did with him, i waited 4 years to get him, + when i did i took him for granted + now he's not here + i struggle to breathe when i think about him + my chest feels empty, if you ever want to talk, you can add me on msn, im pretty good at helping other people, but not myself, so maybe by helping you, i could help myself too.

    Msn; funky-thing@hotmail.com

    i hope for both our sakes it gets easier, or else i dont even want to be here im in so much pain

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  19. "You made me feel things I'd never felt before then took it away as if it was nothing.
    As if I was nothing. No explanation. Imagine how that feels."

    you took the words right out of my heart. it's hard to comprehend how someone can love you so much one day, make you feel that love as if it was unbreakable, and then take it away the next day. it's been 3 months now and i'm still trying to cope with the sadness. but along the way i've realized that if you've tried, and you've truly tried, and that effort has not been reciprocated, then they truly do not deserve you. we will be alright.

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  20. "You made me feel things I'd never felt before then took it away as if it was nothing.
    As if I was nothing. No explanation. Imagine how that feels."

    you took the words right out of my heart. it's hard to comprehend how someone can love you so much one day, make you feel that love as if it was unbreakable, and then take it away the next day. it's been 3 months now and i'm still trying to cope with the sadness. but along the way i've realized that if you've tried, and you've truly tried, and that effort has not been reciprocated, then they truly do not deserve you. we will be alright.

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  21. i'm really sorry anon- it's been more than a couple of years when we broke up with my x boyfriend. i'm telling you it was the w o r s t period of my life. i thought i could not take it- i was feeling dead inside. two and half years after and having met no other partner- only casual lovers- i grew into a cynical woman who is hiding very well all her feelings and her romantic side. i am totally over my x, he was not worth the pain and the tears shed. time will heal everything. just be patient.
    i really wish you not to grow into sth like me, but find someone with whom you can share the same dreams.

    bon courage!
    i.

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  22. I know how you feel... and some people know that because it happens to most of them... but take it easy because if that person loves you that much, probably returns to your life again and both of you could be happy again... and it´s like you say,

    no drama just you and that person!

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  23. When I read the italics of this post about who this post was dedicated to, I really thought I was reading someone putting down my emotions from my last relationship. I can relate to absolutely every single thing you said here, I had the same story.

    But I can tell you one thing, it will get better in the long-run, just keep believing :) a tear every now and then is alright!

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  26. It's almost creepy how I'm going through this exact same thing right now and feel exactly how you are. He meant so much to me and I didn't ask for much. But, hopefully he'll eventually see. If not, then I at least got to experience pure happiness for awhile. I hope everything worked out for you.

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