Friday, June 5, 2009

i just need to get this out of my brain


weheartit

"We are just friends. Several times now, I have fallen asleep intertwined with you. Cheek to cheek, even lip to lip--just feeling your breath on my skin. We go no further. Today we went for a walk after a summer pour, and I could feel the warm steam rising from the streets. Now tonight, I sleep alone. It's probably healthy because when I'm tangled up with you I can hardly sleep at all. I spend the whole night on fire, quietly smoldering most of the time. Except when you pull me closer and rub your soft scruffle up and down my neck and chest. Or when you grab me by the hip bone and sink your thumbs into my flesh, sending electric chills up and down my body.Or when you pull me into you, sliding your fingers down my spine until they press the small of my back (chills, again). Or when your lips find the back of my neck and you mumble about how good I smell. Those are the times that the smoldering gives way to a blazing flare and all I can do is hope for a nap the next day.

But not tonight. You're there and I'm here. I could never tell you this, but every night your body isn't pressed against mine, I have to pack pillows around myself just to fall asleep. But we are just friends, and I'm sure you sleep fine without me." - A

69 comments:

  1. isn't it amazing how such special intimate personal moments and feelings seem to be common amongst humanity

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  2. those moments are what this life is worth living for. moments that build up and built up until finally that person becomes someone truly special. i loved this post.

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  3. I know exactly what she's saying here and I must say, it's a wonderful, terrible feeling. She fell in love with her friend who does not love her back. I felt the closest with my friend when we were sleeping too. He would curl up and rest his face on my neck or on my chest and I wouldn't move because I wanted him to stay there like that forever. I convinced myself he wouldn't do that, even in his sleep, if he didn't love me back. But he didn't. He never did. This post took me right back to that feeling. It is so well written, it almost made me cry.

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  4. i find this to be amazingly timed. i feel that way right now. about a boy.
    & it makes me sad to know that other people feel this way, too. i wish we could just yell our feelings from the top of our roofs. the world would be much simpler.

    thank you for this, really.
    xo-

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  5. this makes me wish i had someone to sleep next to tonight

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  6. thankyou. you have just put every feeling ive been having into two paragraphs. i feel amazingly together now.
    xx

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  7. i agree with this completely. i actually do the pillow thing. it's quite sad. but it makes me hope that someday there will be someone that makes me laugh and brings me joy that i can sleep next to. for now my cat and pillows will have to make do.

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  8. This brought tears to my eyes. I can't sleep without the pillows either.

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  9. I'll link this on my blog...so pretty

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  10. ....i started crying.
    omg, perfect description of my feelings right now. so sweet~
    holy shit, i love this blog.

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  11. Incredibly beautiful, and very touching. Chills all over.

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  12. That's really, really beautiful.

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  13. Wonderful description.
    Beautiful love that conquers all, yet, it's so rare and precious.

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  14. I've been in the same position for so long..
    A breathtaking piece.

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  15. Beautiful and very touching.

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  16. this is what i do.

    i know his back so well because i draw swirls all over it every night before we go to sleep.

    i am trying so hard not to miss him right now, because he doesn't miss me.

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  17. This reminds of one of my best male friends. He always comforts me in such intimate ways..well it stretches to me what friendship love is.

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  18. Wow, what a touching text.

    This is the first time I'm commenting here (I'm so bad at commenting blogs I read) - but I really love your blog. It is one of my favorites. It just makes me happy and I think it makes me appreciate the small things and stuff boys do for me more. I've never had a proper boyfriend, because I always tend to push them away as soon as it gets "too serious", and I've never wanted to make any commitment to one person.. but your blog kind of makes me consider it anyway, haha.

    I also love your two other blogs, Le Fashion and Le Smoking.


    ♥ shelley

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  19. Believe it or not I'm going through and feeling the exact same way as this person.

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  20. Breath-taking.
    Unlike the other commenters, I am not currently going through this.
    But I once was. I once was lying in my bed alone and had this sudden urge and need to reach out my hand as though I were holding someone's hand, even though no one was there. I told myself no one was there and so it was unnecessary to strain my arm, but somehow I couldn't resist and I couldn't stop.
    Now I am with someone, and he is absolutely amazing,
    but I understand this post.
    And I still find it completely beautiful.
    It's kind of bittersweet.
    And it's written so beautifully.
    Truly breath-taking.
    One of my favorite posts.

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  21. Oh my heart...

    Such a beautiful paean to unrequited love... sniff...

    I am one of the lucky ones...

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  22. beautiful words. They totally describes my relation with my ex boyfriend. Lovely and so moving.

    xxx

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  23. This is such a perfect peace of writing. It made everything freeze for a moment. Like others- i am going through it to.

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  24. brilliantly written - sad though :( xx

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  25. got chills by reading it!

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  26. so beautiful, it gives me chills. i have to sleep with my back against pillows so it feels like i have my boyfriend next to me when he's actually so many miles away...

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  27. Wonderfully written and human.

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  28. Wow. I think this is such a universal sensation; those moments when you want time to stop and just to stay curled up with another person forever. This capture that feeling for me so well, and at this moment in time - it is serendipitous. Thank you.

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  29. awww....!!! i feel it, right here inside me,the same emotion, i have never before come across a write-up of this sorts which has evoked such a strong bolt of emotion. thank you so much for this ~!!

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  30. Oh, this pillow thing... We all feel the same, don´t we?

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  31. this is so true. oh dear. i know that feeling well.

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  32. That it so beautifully written, and I think most people recognize the feeling.

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  33. This is the last night he spent with me. And when I woke up and read your post, all of my feelings stood written there, right in front of me, black on white.

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  34. This is so wonderfully written. That wonderful yet aching feeling.

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  35. It's so ironic in some way, because I read the text and thought that I feel exactly like it's written in the text, like I feel for a guy which name begins at A. The most ironic is that the text ended in a "- A", it made me cry. It's so beautiful written, and after reading people's comments, it felt so good to know that you are not alone whit that feeling

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  36. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=McD0wKt3eUQ

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  37. it is really amazing how we're not the only ones going through things like this...

    i can totally relate to what you have written.. and it reminded me of me and him... we were never together.. but i felt like i couldn't live without him... i had trouble sleeping each time he wasn't next to me.. and i still wish i could wake up next to him every day.. i wish he was the first face i see every morning..

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  38. stunning. I'll have to try the pillows next time.

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  39. this post was so wonderfully written that it brought back a searing pain. i was this person about 6 months ago. it still hurts to think about.

    xo
    kelly

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  40. Oh my I feel so related! I think I`m falling in love with my best friend and it`s a terrible feeling, when he gets near me I feel an electric current and when I feel his breath on my neck or when he kisses it I think I`m gonna loose it , I wish I could stop this feeling but i´m glad to see that I`m not the only one.

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  41. This is soo fucked up.
    Reading this made me feel really...


    knotted inside.

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  42. I have chills and am currently heading to the bathroom at work to shed a little tear.

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  43. since words are my foreplay this post took my breath away..i hate being sappy but im a hopeful romantic...
    i wish i could let myself feel this way about someone.
    it seems like a pretty awesome state of being in life.

    its made its way onto tumblr-where my new blog is..and ive reposted it..so come check out the new blog love!
    xx
    kelsey

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  44. I have never found something that I relate to this much. wow...
    *sad face*

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  45. Absolutely fantastic post. Love love love love love it :) Very pertinent :D

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  46. He smelled good too.

    I miss that smell terribly.

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  47. Wow, that is so beautiful.

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  48. fuck i love it
    so sensual
    so depressing
    so fulfilling
    so . . .
    my words didnt come out as poetic as i wanted them too dangit dawg

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  49. I can totally relate...Just imagining his arms around me every night (I don't have enough pillows to do the pillow thing).
    It makes me wanna cry, reading this. So beautiful, the way it's written.

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  50. I loved it, amazingly written. I really appreciate your blog. Who wrote this?

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  51. I have been in love with a man for a long time. He is my best friend. I have been aware of the situation from the very beginning, he has never lied to me. He was meant to be my best friend, and that would have to suffice, because he is tied to who he is SUPPOSED to be, rather than who I know he would love to be. His marriage was arraged in his early youth, and I will never be suitable for him. That being said, I continue to love him, even though doing so takes a toll on my every day, every minute, every second. Love songs, fairy tales, and blogs like this one make up for the love I lack but desperately seek. My only hope is that he doesnt feel this pain, and that he sleeps fine without me.
    Beautiful post.

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  52. As beautiful as only unfulfilled love can be...

    Greetings,
    poet

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  53. and how do i go about fixing this one way love? my best friend. i will never find anyone who can make me laugh as much. when i see him i try and not be so obvious but its hard to avoid noticing my huge smile. we have code words and songs, secret gestures and dances. i wonder is his gf knows that she is THE most lucky girls in the whole wide world. its assumed we are the couple and then i tell people nothings going on. i think the joy and happiness of seeing him over weighs the heart ache for when he leaves my company for hers xxx

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  54. I hear tit too.

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  55. wow, i sit here with tears streaming down my face, thank you fro writing this, sometimes you do feel like you are the only one. Be careful & cautious but hold thise times close to your heart, things change so fast

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  56. this text describes my situation and feelings for the last 6 months so correctly.
    the funny part is, that today, the whole thing culminated. something big happened, and it cant continue like this anymore.
    it is so beautifully written, and a perfect farewell to the described feeling.
    chills all over. Thank you so much for this...

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  57. Wow. I want them to be together so bad! So romantic...:)

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  58. i love your blog so much! everything is so timeless and pretty! i wish you would post more stories/quotes! this is stunning!

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  60. Aww, this is quite sad. Yet beautiful.

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  61. i understand this...............

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  62. i'm going through exactly the same thing and it helps so much to know i'm not alone even though i don't know any of you. everybody always asks me what's going on with the two of us and i have to reply that we're just friends. but no other friend makes me laugh as much as he does, or lie awake when we share a bed struggling not to move so that he won't take his hand away from where it's resting around my waist. no other friend makes me feel like i've found the one person i want to be with forever, and i'm scared to take it further because i would rather stay just his friend then end up without him in my life at all.

    good luck to everyone xx

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  63. this is so sad,
    This the sory of my like, I've ended up crying like a little girl.
    Would you mind if I link this= thanks

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  64. I used to never sleep.. I was always sure i'd never sleep next to him again & I wanted to remember every second of how lovely it felt..

    I loved your post so so much -Its perfect!
    But know I want to know how the story ends..

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  65. this speaks volumes about the ..ill say situation i have with a boy now :)

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